!GREEN!

2009-01-12T21:58:00.002+08:00

okay in case you guys lose it,
imma go say this first to you guys.

I'M MOVING!

yes. blogger has finally pissed me off so badly that i'm moving.

*victory punch*

i'm moving to TUMBLR!

shocks and horror.
its more easier to use too.
so whatever.

LINK: sq230.tumblr.com

i kept the name cause its the easiest.
plus, i like it.
no one else has it.

so go relink me.
or not.
just don't bother coming back here.
no more updates in here!

unless nostalgia hits me.

2009-01-08T22:09:00.002+08:00

tmr's the performance.

hopefully we won't screw up
or you'll see a mid-twenty aged guy walking out in the middle of the performance.
and never coming back.

i dunno what to say.
the chance was always there but i never bothered to grab it.
or i was too afraid to.
afraid to fail.

~we will never believe again.

2008-12-30T11:55:00.001+08:00

c'est très important!!!!!

you guys have to go to this website.

wordcountjournal.com

its a journal where you write a word on your first day at the web, two words on your 2nd, three words on your third and
blah blah blah

its really cool cause by then you'd have written 66,795 words.

more than a novel.

so gogogo!!!!!

2008-12-16T20:01:00.003+08:00

Okay, you guys can totally count these two drool-worthy boys into my list of wanted guys.
first guy: Alex Pettyfer from Wild Child.
second guy: Aaron Johnson from Angus, Thongs and Perfect Snogging.

they are friggin' HAWT.
and yes, i've watched angus, thongs and perfect snogging before it even hit the screens in S'pore.

thats what i call fast.
thank you internet.

don't say i like weird guys anymore.
okay
look at Pettyfer.
he's a BURBERRY MODEL.
yeah people.
BURBERRY.
as if the fact that he's standing next to Agyness Dean isn't obvious enough.

NO HE'S NOT THE RED HAIRED ONE.
YES I'M SURE.
VERY.

AND YES, THE RED ONE IS A GUY.
NO, NOT A TRANSVETITE.

gosh... i have a long list of crushes right now:

Brendon Urie.(PANIC AT THE DISCO!)
Ikuta Toma.(Japanese Actor)
Alex Greenwald.(Phantom Planet)
Gabe Saporta.(COBRA STARSHIP!)
Matt Prokop.(High School Musical 3)
Alex Pettyfer.(Wild Child)
Aaron Johnson.(Angus, Thongs and Perfect Snogging)
Christopher Drew.(nevershoutnever!)
Jackson Rathbone.(Twilight : Jasper Hale)
Damian Kulash.(OK GO!)

cool. wicked. great.
damn i wished i had a guy like any of those up there.

of course that means i need lotsa luck. like 247818472094781290578 times.
which is most likely never gonna happen.
dang.
i had hope.

oh well. time to finally reply everyone out there.

eliz and sherrie: dude... i never update my links unless i'm reeeeeeeaaaaaallllllllyyyyyyy bored.
so i'll go to your blogs but you'll have to wait for me to link.

chris: i have a nickname. it also happens to be my blog name.(:

sheena: i wanna watch twilight... sian... see you on 21st then.

sheryl: you! also another one not going for science centre. beat you up arh.

rui: my mom says she wanna watch the new movie by super junior. o.0

ada: okay... i went to your blog but only saw mr. neo's pics so i don't know where the shoes flew to! i swear!

gtgw: dude. my jeans name. read the post properly.

zhiqing: sorry the blog is kinda screwed but at least you made it to the board! i still like green though. maybe i be guava, you be pumpkin. FRUITS AND VEGGIES!

silver: wait. who are you?

~ meaning otherwise.

2008-12-12T16:17:00.002+08:00

Copy and paste to your own journal, erase my answers, and add your own. Use the 1st letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real places name and/or objects, but nothing made up. Try to use different answers if the person you got this from has the same initial. You can't use your name for the boy/girl name question. Have fun with it!

MY NAME: Ong Shu Qing but I'm using the letter S.

1. Four letter word: Song.
2. Boy name: Samuel.
3. Girl name: Sheryl.
4. Occupation: SUPERHERO! i checked. wikipedia says its an occupation.
5. Colour: Scarlet.
6. Something you wear: Shoes.
7. Beverage: Snapple.
8. Food: SUSHI!
9. Place: Switzerland.
10. Something found in bathroom: Shampoo.
11. Reason for being late: Spaceship tried to abduct me. ha!
12. Something you shout: SUCKER!
13. Font: Scribble.
14. TV show: Saturday Night Live.
15. Song Title: Seven Nation Army by The White Stripes. yeah!

I'd like to thank Wikipedia and iTunes for this.
Yes!

2008-12-08T14:30:00.002+08:00

i am delirious now.
with joy of course, not drugs.
nor booze.

that's cause i've gotten a new book!
yup, another of Palahniuk's.
i don't care if you hate him or whatever but he is the coolest writer to me.

so far i've read most of his works except for three to four left.
trying trying to download his new movie Choke.
still trying trying.

was reading an internet article about guilty pleasure songs of stars.
you guys have any guilty pleasure song?

i know mine.
ssshh...
its Coldplay's Fix You.
yeahyeah i know
there's no point sshing at all.

thats one song which can make me cry, laugh, dance, scream etc etc
its like therapy in four minutes.
good, no?

ugh, my arm still hurts.
bruises from the jabs.
so don't, no really don't, touch me on my right hand.
or arm.
and def. not the wrist.
unless you have a deathwish on your list of goals.

2008-12-06T13:09:00.003+08:00

just watched finished Amelie from Montmartre.
great and cute movie about this girl Amelie who is out to help the people around her.
the lead actress is Audrey Tautou, you might know her from The DaVinci Code.
eccentric but adorable all the same.

came back from Malaysia
and lo and behold,
got myself a mild case of food poisoning.
not pretty,
waking up at two am and hurling my ass out.
i missed two days of sleep kay.
went to the hospital and got myself TWO jabs.
ouch.
one was for a drip, the other was to stop the nausea.
the drip one sucks.
the needle was like 4922147092784912412378146123846 cm long.
still have the scar to prove it.
well, at least i missed two pracs of choir.

i don't think trying to teach soprano while vomiting at the same time is good.
for both parties.

anyway, go watch the movie if you can.

2008-11-30T22:06:00.002+08:00

so like, i'm not crazy angry anymore.
sorry if i scared you guys or something
but anyway, if you know me well enough you def. have not been scared
cause well,
i'm known to have occasional outbursts of crazy anger online.

yeah, crazy anger. my name for it.

bought myself some new clothes
cause my mom threw 90% of my old clothes away.
and plus, Levi's was having a promo of some sort so i went ahead,
donated my old jeans and got a new pair of skinnies!
yay, now i have two pairs of skinnies!

why all skinnies you ask?
well cause i look like i'm going for a hip hop music vid. shoot when i wear non- skinnies.
yo, homies.

some nice tees and a new sling bag too.
i'll post the pics next time.
my mom was complaining bout it cause we were using her money.
oh well, who asked her to throw away 90% of my clothes w/o asking?

Campbell's is a life-saver.
really.
esp. the chunky version (:
yeahyeah, i know its fattening
but its so good on a cold day
(its cold to me cause i'm sick).
mmmmmmmm... cream of chicken.
don't lie, you know you've gotten a good craving for Campbell's before.

2008-11-26T21:19:00.002+08:00

round and round the dial turns
your finger itches but your pride hurts.

yeah, all i wanna tell you is

FUCK YOU.

FUCK YOU AND YOUR BLOODY FACE.

BEFORE I STAB MY FINGERS INTO YOUR EYES CAUSE IT SICKENS ME TO LOOK AT YOU.

don't ever, ever, piss me off like this.
damn it.

2008-11-22T21:45:00.001+08:00

'

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHEENA CHEENA!
okay,

HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY SHEENA CHEENA!

this is one of my fave songs from The Beatles called Birthday so enjoy the vid!!!

2008-11-21T17:23:00.003+08:00

whoo.
finally got sheens's bday present.
i thought it was quite a good present too.
definitely something that she'll like.
quote "100% chop plus guarantee"

plus i liked the way i wrapped it.
(:

ok so i admit,
i'm a sucker for cute dorks who most likely a complete fool of themselves sometimes.
which is why i have a new fan-crush:

JIMMIE "THE ROCKET" ZARA!
aka, ROCKETMAN!

i don't care what you think, he is cool and way adorable.
and i know there's loads of people who disagree with me
but i still like him.
at least he's not fake like some people are.

i hate people who think that by acting nonchalant and giving off the "i-really-don't-care" vibe,
they're cool cause well,
you suck c***.

yeah, you know who you are.
me and many other people do too.
so go jump off a building or something cause you're polluting my environment.
we need resources and they're not meant for people like you.

imma mean girl today.
yay.
*highfives*

wheee....
kbox on sunday...
even though i don't know a lotta chinese songs but still,
great excuse to sing w/o being in the shower or in the music room.
hee.
but i do know quite a number of S.H.E.'s songs thanks to my neighbour's car.

me and my sis were discussing about what we would be if we were to dress up for Halloween.
she wanted to be a ghost(the easiest costume : bedsheet with two holes) or the grim reaper(black hoodie and jeans).

i was all for the vampire.
not the sexy kind with practically nothing to wear
but the Cullen kind.
(yeah, you know what i'm saying)
golden-eyed(contacts), stylish clothes and extremely pale makeup with really dark eyebags.
plus i already got Alice's hair down pat.
i just might throw in the cheesy cloak.
of course, not forgetting the teeth.
i wonder if they have only the pointed parts instead of the whole thing
cause that would really suck when you talk.

like : sjkfhajkhawklrjhlkjhsklfhskjfhkshrjlkh.
ha.

definitely must have a Halloween party when i have the chance.
i think i also might have an idea of what my friends might end up as:

Sheryl : Yuki Cross
Sheena : might be Hayley Williams from Paramore (flaming red hair)
Jiaye : i really have NO idea, that girl is CRAZY. some wicked devil? ( actually i'd really like to see what she'll come as)
Ruiling : someone from WonderGirls or maybe the WonderWoman from their MV
Zhiqing: something orang and green. a guava dipped in cheese?
Junyao: a cow. definitely.
Anqi : a duck. definitely.
Philip : a monster pet. HA!

this isn't real, people but if it were, i think i'll have trouble with breathing cause i'll be laughing way too much.

~never miss a beat

2008-11-20T19:12:00.001+08:00

by far the best video i have ever seen.

ok, maybe this can win it.

first is D.A.N.C.E. by Justice and then Here It Goes Again by Ok Go.
both my fav songs ever, never ever get tired of listening to them.
damned i'll be if i can draw like in D.A.N.C.E. and if i can dance on a treadmill like in Here It Goes Again.

was reading Hellboy: Odder Jobs
okay, i admit, imma nerd.
but lets face it Hellboy rocks your shit better than you yourself.

i smell dinner!!!!
bye.
hahahahahahaha.....
if you gotta know i just wanted to show you guys the vids and crap a bit.
thats a bit right?
kay.
bye.

~Crown of the Apocalypse.

2008-11-18T16:32:00.002+08:00

farewell seniors.
would-be sorely missed people.
will kop pics from people soon.

i don't know.
should i show what i've been thinking for a long time?
next year would be the last chance.
and the longest.
i don't wanna make the same mistake as before.
cringing at every time i think of it.

lkjdshaksdjfhaskfjshalkfjhaslkfjhsdalkjfhasdkljfhlajkfhlj
mxcvbzxmvbnasuiauysd8oysdorhwjeartbmnbzxcnvjksdfheu'

...

2008-11-11T14:42:00.003+08:00

TYPE YOUR FIRST NAME WITH YOUR :
1. FINGERS: shuqing
2. CHIN:ssshujhqangh
3. ONE FINGER, EYES CLOSED: shuqing
4. ELBOW: shuqing
5. NOSE: i don't want nose oil on my keyboard
6. PALM: shuqing

1. List four random items you have:
my ipod, my phone, my wallet, my comp.

2. Have you ever slept in the back of the car?
duh... alone of course.

3. Have you recently dyed your hair/cut it?
cut it just three days ago. STUPID HAIRDRESSER!

4. List four people you look up to the most.
you you you and........ me.

5. How many pets do you own as of now?
two.

6. Which do you prefer? White or Black?
white.

7. Who is your most played character?
i play myself damnit.

8. Choose one or the other, not both: Being stuck on an island with a friend, or being stuck on an island with 5 acquaintances.
with 5 acquaintances. more fun!

9. Name three aspects that tell who you are.
crazy, lame, weird.

10. If you could have a power what would it be?
be like peter petrelli. get all powers.

11. Who was the last person you talked to?
my sis.

12. Who was the last person you said “i love you” to?
my mom? only cause she's getting me my ipod touch!

13. Write down the first five words that pop into your head.
ipod, legend, burger, tuition, rabbit.

14. What’s one thing you wish you could do better?
grades could be better.

15. Do you like the way you are?
sometimes.

16. Choose, Summer or winter
summer, more fun and the clothes are nicer.

17. Rain or snow?
snow. duh.

18. Water or ice?
ice.

19. List two odd things about yourself.
ask my mom and friends.

20. Which are two of your bad habits?
biting nails when nervous and being a really good liar.

21. What’s 1 of your biggest pet peeve?
when people burp or fart and don't say excuse me. WHERE ARE YOUR MANNERS PEOPLE?!

Now list 6 people who should do this quiz:
jiaye
zhiqing
sheryl
junyao
anqi
you

I'M GONNA GET AN IPOD TOUCH!!
or some new ipod anyway,
cause my stupid sister broke my current ipod!!!!
cheebye.
never mind, she's gonna have to pay my mum back.

i want hols.
i want hols.
i want hols damnit.

2008-11-07T21:55:00.002+08:00

imma only posting these two pics cause well,
i look fugly in the rest.
ha!
The Science Centre rocks!!!!!!
i totally love the simulator/stimulator like woah!

and dude, bird, whats with the constant closing of eyes whenever you take a photo?!

should i
or should i not
that IS the question

i'm not gonna let my irrational thinking get the better of me this time.
i'm gonna think really deeply.
made too many wrong choices, too many mistakes.
left too many regrets.
so i'm gonna take this seriously.

i secretly wonder what is the motive though?
is it all because of next year's importance?

back to the Science Centre trip,
there were NS guys standing in rows in front of Macs.
god knows why they were falling in there but...
we waved at them
gotten a few what-the-hell looks and some nice ones that waved back(sneakily of course)
someone said goodbye to us though, some random guy.
haha, NS guys are definitely one of a kind.

i love the Macs at the SC.
a supermassive toy collection in there
you could see all the old toys that Macs came up with in S'pore
some as old as my dad. o.0

tomorrow there's choir.
at the same ungodly hour.
(cause its the weekends and it bloody ungodly to me)

okay i did the same stupid test on godwin's blog cause i was curious and i used a fake name.
actually thats my jeans name.
so heres what my handwriting says about me:

Welcome Amber Ong, here is your handwriting analysis.

Amber is moderately outgoing. Her emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, she can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. She has the ability to put herself into the other person's shoes.

Amber will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes she will be happy, the next day she might be sad. She has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because she is in between. Psychology calls Amber an ambivert. She understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, she will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." She doesn't sway too far one way or the other.

When convincing her to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to her. She puts herself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet she will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Amber is an expressive person. She outwardly shows her emotions. She may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story.

Amber is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. She weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when she finally has to. She basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Amber doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

Amber will demand respect and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity. Amber believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. She has a lot of pride.

Amber is secretive. She has secrets which she does not wish to share with others. She intentionally conceals things about herself. She has a private side that she intends to keep that way, especially concerning certain events in her past.

Diplomacy is one of Amber's best attributes. She has the ability to say what others want to hear. She can have tact with others. She has the ability to state things in such a way as to not offend someone else. Amber can disagree without being disagreeable.

In reference to Amber's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Amber slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project.

She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Amber can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Amber has left lots of white space on the left side of the paper. Amber fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion. If this is true, then Amber has a healthy relationship to the past and is ready to move on. The right side of the page represents the future and Amber is ready and willing to get started living now and planning for the future. Amber would like to leave the past behind and move on.

i dunno if thats true but its quite cool haha!
okay i'll leave you guys with that.

~green light.

2008-10-27T11:32:00.002+08:00

OKAY PEOPLE! USE YOUR IMAGINATION NOW! PRONTO~!

imagine these:

OR these:

PLUS this:

AND this:

WHAT WILL YOU GET?

MY FAREWELL ENSEMBLE!

yeah, but i'm not gonna show you me in this outfit yet cause well, a girl gotta have mystery.
whoooooooo.

the dress esp. was the hard labour of walking around Orchard Road(mainly Wisma Atria and Far East Plaza) on a hot sunny day.
seriously i tell you. never ever go dress shopping unless you have:

a) a really big water bottle
b) loads of energy bars/ sweets

cause you'll be sprawled across your couch by the time you get home.
at least thats what i did.

you absolutely cannot imagine how grateful i am to have finally found my dress.
VERY GRATEFUL.
also VERY GRATEFUL for jiaye in helping me to find nice dresses otherwise it would have taken longer.
*shudders*

i hope this farewell will be good
actually,
it had better be good or i'll kill the committee.
i swear.

REPLIES:::::::

jiaye: its up already, actually its in this post.

kelly3A: yep, its my blog! hi!

DEBRA: hey!!! i think that a steamboat would be great for the outing. miss you too!!

yina`: hi fishball!!!

sheryl: i think you're more siao than me. stop animeing la!!!

sheenaxD: we have the same problem. dead blogs baby!!! whoo!

x) ZHIQING: hey!!! i wanna have more outings too!! gunbound rocks!!! ((: i'll relink when i'm not that lazy heehee.

chris: hey young watermelon!!! i like to eat roast meat!!!! ((:

2008-10-24T17:16:00.002+08:00

it would be easier if you'd just make your feelings known.
of course it would also be easier if i make my feelings known too.
but who wants their hearts ripped right on their sleeves?

tomorrow will be the day i go out with Jiaye, Junyao, Anqi and Melanie
AKA my choirettes
to shop for our farewell dresses.
i was thinking of what style i should go for so it'll be easier
inclined towards tube dresses but i don't want to keep tugging it up
not inclined towards my dress last year cause i want something more mature.

what do you think?

so i was thinking
that maybe
you know what, forget it
its not impt.

2008-10-18T18:59:00.002+08:00

01. What have you been doing recently?
sleeping?

02. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
yeah.

03. What happened at 10.00am today?
i was at choir?

04. When did you last cry?
very long time ago.

05. Believe in fate/destiny?
on certain things.

06. What do you want in your life right now?
Brendon Urie! Okay, I'll settle for a laptop and the entire Fables series. oh and a new iPod.

07. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
when i have an umbrella then i'll use it la.

08. What's your favourite thing to have on your bed?
my pillow????? what.. condom ah?

9. What bottom are you wearing now?
shorts.

10. What's the nicest text in your inbox say?
i refuse to say.

11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
i dunno la ask my ex la.

12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
nope.

What was the last movie you caught?
*growls*HOUSE BUNNY!

14. What are you proud of?
at being spastic. and my friends.

15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?
happy new year. ((:

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
Bright Idea by Orson

17.Do you have any nicknames?
fuck ong, sq230,qingqing(!)

18. What does your last received text message say?
SLs, report. and i never replied.

19. What time did you go to bed last night?
one am.

20. Are you currently happy?
kinda?

21. Who gives you best advice?
definitely not my parents.

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
no... are you crazy?!

23. Who did you talk on phone last night?
no one, i'd rather sms or talk in person.

24. Is anything bugging you right now?
my mom with what to eat for dinner.

25. What/who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
CBLJ

26. Do you wear toe socks?
only my father does...

27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
jiaye ((:

28. Have you ever had your heart broken?
so far, no.

29. What annoys you most in a person?
that he/she cannot stop talking. DAMN IT JUST SHUT UP! esp. when its all crap

30. Do you have a crush on anyone?
maybe... oh, yes, on Brendon Urie, Ed Westwick and Ikuta Toma!!!!!!!!!

31. Have you ever done cocaine?
have you ever checked your brain?

32. What is the colour of your room?
begiey pink.

33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollar?
if i don't get caught. yes.

34. Do you believe in the saying : talk is cheap?
yes, talk doesn't really mean anything unless you do what you say.

35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed?
me duh.

36. Who was the last person to hug you?
Sheryl, i think that goes for everyone.

37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
i kissed my dad on the cheek. who wants to look?

38. Do you have a life?
yes, not like Chicken Sheena.

39. Have you ever think someone died, when they really didnt die?
yes, my enemies. then i was so disappointed.

40. What is the reason behind your profile song?
its about someone from my past.

41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
can't remember leh, me?

42. Last time you smiled?
few hours before.

43. Have you changed this year?
yes, more mature and more spastic, i know i'm contradicting myself.

44. What are you listening right now?
I'm Like A Lawyer With The Way I'm Always Trying To Get You Off (Me & You) by Fall Out Boy

45. Are you talking to someone when you doing this?
no.

46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
open la, you think sex talk ah.

47. Is there a quote you live by?
i live on different quotes on different days.

49. Have you ever played an instrument?
piano and guitar.

50. What was the worst idea you've had in this week?
showing my mom my results.

51. What are you doing last night at 11pm?
watching tv.

52. Are you happy with your love life right now?
there is no love life.

53. What song best describe your love life?
About A Girl by The Academy Is... except its About A Boy.

54. Does the person know that you like him/her?
i don't think so.

55. Who always make you laugh?
CBLJ

56. Do you speak other language other than English?
Hokkien, Chinese, a smattering of Korean/Japanese/French.

57. Favourite website(s)?
Blogger, Buzznet, Myspace, Xanga, Threadless

58. What's your middle name?
no middle name, unless you count Shu.

59. What are you doing tomorrow?
slacking.

60. What do you think you are like?
me.

61. Who will you choose to die with?
my lover.

62. Where have you been today?
school, home.

63. What game do you play often?
iSketch and a bit of Gunbound.

64. Who are you missing right now?
CBLJ and my choir gang.

65. If you have to choose between friend and love, who will you choose?
depends on the situation.

66. What are you doing right now?
doing this stupid quiz. downloading music. surfing around.

67. Which primary school are you from?
Gong Shang Primary!!!

68. Name 3 colours that you like?
Red, White, Green. Ha, France.

69. What emotion you like to show?
Spastic.

70. What is your life to you?
my life la.

71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
solve the trouble.

72. Who did you last chat in msn today?
forgot, rui? sheryl?

73. Who do you admire most?
Chuck Palahniuk, Neil Gaiman, Gabriel Ba, Grant Morrisson.

74. Which month are you born in?
August.

75. How are you feeling right now?
siended.

76. What is the time now?
7:48pm

77. What kind of person do u think the one who tagged you is?
a siao one. a half-naked korean guys fanatic.

78.What colour did you use to dye hair?
never dyed my hair. never will.

79. Why are you doing this test?
cause i'm siao too like rui.

80. What do you do when you're moody?
listen to my iPod. give pissed off face.

81. At which age you wish to get married?
i don' really care, when it comes, it comes.

82. Who is more important to you?
everyone is impt to me in someway.

83. If today is the last day of your life, what will you do?
be awfully true about everything and confess.

84. Who is the person you trust the most?
my friends and my mom.

85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
yeah. definitely but maybe not me seeing it.

86. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
marrying Brendon Urie. ((:

87. What is your goal for this year?
to study harder.

88.Do you believe in eternity love?
no, even if you've found the one, you'll wanna pull his head out when you're pissed with him.

89. What feeling do you love most?
the feeling of good music running through my ears.

90. Do you really think its Global Warming now?
yeah, nonono, i think its Global Freezing.

91. What feeling do you hate most?
the feeling of guilt.

92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
yes. a lot. even if i don't show it.

93. Do you believe in God?
i dunno what to believe. cause i think we're all just looking to the same thing in the end.

94. Who cares for you most?
my family and my friends(i hope)

95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
friends, family, iPod.

97. What have you done regretted doing in your whole life?
doing idiotic things without thinking.

98. What would you feel if no one no longer cares for you?
probably hide in some corner and die with my iPod.

99. What if your boyfriend/girlfriend two-timed you?
probably kick him THERE then kick him outta my life.

100. How do you feel now?
groovy, haha!

i tag Jiaye, Anqi, Junyao, CBLJ. or anyone who wanna do this. you must be siao.

2008-10-14T21:53:00.004+08:00

[VANYA THE VIOLINIST]

okay i know this is kinda porno but its still porno in a classy way hor. supposedly a girl/violin monster. i know. obvious. if you're wondering what these pictures are, continue reading on.

[THE DAY THE EIFFEL TOWER WHEN BERSERK]

this is drawn by gerard way and the one below. if you've read the Fables series before, then you'll recognise the style of drawing and colouring. anyway, these are the good guys.

[THE FUNERAL]

this is the scene where the good guys attend the funeral of their foster dad. see the second picture? the old guy's face in the middle is the dad and he died. plus he's an alien.

the horrors are over.

but another wave comes crashing in.

i mean the collection of scripts.

today was outing day with CBLJ to Bugis

watched House Bunny, it was alright.

predictable dumb bimbo plot with moral-filled ending.

and i got my birthday present from Philip and Zhiqing.

thank you!!!

it was The Umbrella Academy's Apocalypse Suite by none other than

GERARD WAY AND GABRIEL BA!!!!

i've been waiting damn long for this comic series to appear in S'pore cause i'm too lazy to order it online.

finally.

there are some nice art covers by Gabriel Ba, one of the award-winning artist of a pair of Brazilian twin(his brother Fabian is a genius too)

you guys can enjoy the nice works on top.((:

so i'm currently obsessing over this little gem of mine.

still craving for Chuck Palahniuk's other works and the Fables series.

so that is a BIG hint for my next b'day present. ((:

We wished Sheena was there though, missed d'siaoing someone.

lol. ;)

okay, imma lover of the Dumont chocolate cornflake waffle!!!

all because of ruiling la.

heehee imma hopeless fanatic of the indulgent treat.

now if only it was made of Green And Black's Organic Chocolate....

heaven....

2008-10-04T18:28:00.002+08:00

don't say i'm losing it.
maybe in time.

i am going to burst into flames if i don't scream at someone.
NOW.

i hate.
everything.
damn it.

2008-10-02T22:28:00.002+08:00

YES PEOPLE! MY CPU IS BACK AND SO AM I!!!
*loves*
many hugs to the people who repaired my CPU.

CBLJ is also loves!
we're a big crazy group like seriously.
whatever we say ends up pornish.
kinda like Mrs Lim's lessons. ((:

i wanna go to Changi Airport again and again and again and again... you get the drift.

hooked on M.I.A.
she's a singer/rapper.
damn, i wish i was so cool too.
all i wanna do is *bang bang bang bang* and a *press... kaCHING* and take your money.

the end of years suck.
i hate amath.
bleh.... bleh... bleh...
i wish i was in America.
where exams don't matter.

went to 85 today with the usual crew.
talked pretty much about all the crap in the world.
pointed boobs and black pearls.
i told you we were pornish.
with Sheryl as our master.
*bows deeply*
melamine bubble milk tea and chaota cheese fries!

i think that attitude defines a person yeah?
what the person does, what the person says
pretty much sums up everything the person is.
unless of course you're a faker then we still know your attitude anyway.
sometimes i meet people who either don't wanna face their attitude problem
or their problem is so big that it makes them blind and oblivious to it.
thats makes me sad and feel sympathetic towards them.

don't make me feel sympathetic towards you.
it means you will get no respect from me cause you're so poor.
not financially idiots.

2008-09-17T18:12:00.002+08:00

The Hoosiers --- Goodbye Mr. A

There's a hole in your logic
You who know all the answers
You claim science aint magic
And expect me to buy it

And Goodbye Mr A
You promised you would love us
But you knew too much
Goodbye Mr A
You had all the answers
But no human touch
If life is subtraction
Your number is up
Your love is a fraction
It's not adding up

Oh-Oh-Oh-Oh
(Oh-Oh-Oh-Oh)
(Oh-Oh-Oh-Oh)
(Oh-Oh-Oh-Oh-Oh-Oh-Oh)

So busy showing me where i'm wrong
You forgot to switch your feelings on
Oh-Oh-Oh
So so superior, ard you not
You love a little bit but you forgot

Goodbye Mr A
You promised you would love us
But you knew too much
Goodbye Mr A
You had all the answers
But no human touch
If life is subtraction
Your number is up
Your love is a fraction
It's not adding up

Oh-Oh-Oh-Oh
(Oh-Oh-Oh-Oh)
(Oh-Oh-Oh-Oh)
(Oh-Oh-Oh-Oh-Oh-Oh-Oh)

(Goodbye Mr A)
(Goodbye Mr A)

Goodbye Mr A
The world was full of wonder till you opened my eyes
Goodbye Mr A
(Goodbye Mr A)
Wish you hadn't blown my mind and killed the suprise
Goodbye Mr A
You promised you would love us but you knew to much
Goodbye Mr A
You had all the answers
But no human touch
If life is subtraction
Your number is up
Your love is a fraction
It's not adding up

(Oh-Oh-Oh-Oh)

Gosh, I love this song.
Its so witty and catchy.
Definitely one of my new interests now.

Today was Jianwei's birthday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SISTER!
yes. he's our sister.
we sang the birthday song to him like three times?
twice in class and once during assembly.
we contemplated on singing during recess but we were all too shy to have the guts.

if you knew how long i stoned in front of this computer,
thinking of what to type.
too many thoughts but none important enough.

ah.
I'll stop here.
I'm blanking out liao
can't let that happen.((:

2008-09-14T15:50:00.001+08:00

one glance.
thats all it takes.

Mooncake festival celebration in school was eventful.
Hopefully Zhiq you're feeling better!
Went looking for ghosts.
Ended up burning lanterns, sticks, twigs, leaves, candles and a matchbox.
HA!

Yesterday went to celebrate again.
Burned a snail this time.
Felt bad but its all in good fun.
SPCA please don't kill me.

Okay, imma a lazy gurl so...
HI BACK TO WHOEVER TAGGED ME!!!!
one stone hit many stupid birds
hee!

what's it like to see?
what's it like to hear?
what's it like to touch?
what's it like to taste?
what's it like to smell?
in the perspective of someone else?

I should have said what my heart was screaming out
on Friday.
But my rationality and fear pulled me back.
Or was it cause I was waiting for you to say it.

2008-09-05T20:59:00.002+08:00

I'm not lost; not lost, just undiscovered
And when we're alone we are all the same as each other
~James Morrison : Undiscovered

And I know its a wonderful world but I can't feel it right now.
From the sky down to the sea but I just wanna cry now.
~James Morrison : Wonderful World

Lovers, keep on the road you're on
Runners, until the race is run
Soldiers, you've got to soldier on
Sometimes even right is wrong
~Coldplay : Lovers In Japan

Please don't wake me
No don't shake me
Leave me where I am
I'm only sleeping
~The Beatles : I'm Only Sleeping

Tell me that you could hear it
Three taps under the floorboard.
Dont' say i'm losing it,
Maybe you're deaf.
~As Tall As Lions : Ghosts Of York

No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs
~Death Cab For Cutie : I Will Follow You Into The Dark

Sunday morning rain is falling
Steal some covers share some skin
Clouds are shrouding us in moments unforgettable
You twist to fit the mold that I am in
But things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do
And I would gladly hit the road get up and go if I knew
That someday it would lead me back to you
~Maroon 5 : Sunday Morning

Now you were fine by night
But when the morning light comes
Comfortable as rain on Sunday
And I’m a lucky soul
That holds your hand so tight
Hope you hear this one day
Don’t fool yourself
This is my truth
I swear it’s you
~One Republic : Won't Stop

I never loved nobody fully
always one foot on the ground
and by protecting my heart truly
I got lost in the sounds
I hear in my mind
all these voices
I hear in my mind
all these words
I hear in mind
all this music
and it breaks my heart...
~Regina Spektor : Fidelity

Thinking about thinking of you
Summertime think it was June
Yeah think it was June
Laying back, head on the grass
Children grown having some laughs
Yeah having some laughs.
~Stereophonics : Dakota

It's a beautiful day
Sky falls, you feel like
It's a beautiful day
Don't let it get away
~U2 : Beautiful Day

It's alright and it's nice not to be so alone
But I hold on to your secrets in white houses
~Vanessa Carlton : White Houses

All I felt.
These days.
...

2008-09-04T13:09:00.002+08:00

Name 20 people you can think of right now. Don’t read the questions until you name them. At the end of this, choose 5 people to do this. Have FUN!

1 Jiaye
2 Sheryl
3 Sheena
4 Ruiling
5 Zhiqing
6 Junyao
7 Anqi
8 Jian Wei
9 Tian Jiao
10 Jesse
11 Godwin
12 Danica
13 Shi Jia
14 Elizabeth Tan
15 Cornelius
16 Phillip
17 Christopher
18 Eugenia
19 Alvina
20 Sister

A.) How did you meet 14? (Elizabeth Tan)
AHS, choir.

B.) What would i do if i never met 1? (Jiaye)
Probably be bored and lonely till death.

C.) What if 9 & 20 dated? (Tian Jiao/Sister)
YOU SIAO ARH?!

D.) How about 6 & 17? (Junyao/Christopher)
Not bad actually. Cow and Roast Meat.

E.) Describe 3. (Sheena)
By far the most spastic person I've seen.

F.) Is 8 Attractive? (Jian Wei)
Er... Ask his girlfriend la!

G.) Describe 7. (Anqi)
Very duck-like. Scratch that. She's a real live duck.

H.) Do you know any of 12’s family members? (Danica)
Nope but I know that she likes The Jonas Brothers. BLEH.

I.) What would you do if 18 confessed that he/she likes you? (Eugenia)
She and I are not lesbians leh.

J.) What language does 15 speak? (Cornelius)
Very proper English and QUITE good Chinese.

K.) Who is 9 going out with? (Tian Jiao)
No one... I guess?

L.) How old is 16? (Phillip)
Physically 15. Mentally 3.

M.) When is the last time you spoke to 13? (Shi Jia)
Yesterday!!! BBQ.

N.)What’s 2’s favourite band/singer? (Sheryl)
I only her favourite song. Nagareboshi. (:

O.) Would you ever date 4? (Ruiling)
I'd probably choke her to death.

P.) Would you ever date 1? (Jiaye)
Do penguins' date?

Q.) Is 19 single? (Alvina)
NO! HAHA!

R.) What is 10’s last name? (Jesse)
Lai.

S.) Would you ever date 11? (Godwin)
Er... No.

T.) What is 3’s School? (Sheena)
AHS!

U.) Where does 16 live? (Phillip)
Somewhere near Bedok and Tanah Merah.

V.) What is 5’s favourite thing? (Zhiqing)
Anything orange or green or orange and green.

W.) Have you seen 2 naked? (Sheryl)
NO! I don't think I wanna either.((:

I'm lazy.
Whoever's reading this.
Go do this quiz.
NOW! ((:

2008-08-31T17:18:00.002+08:00

TO

sheena xD: hey back noob. ((: haha

eliz: link le xiao peng you

emma: thank you but i like this new one better! ((:

sheryl: yes... kiam neng is loves. but definite kidney failure ya know?

rui: haha! stripper thian is siao le...

jianwei(: : yo back! ((:

zhiqing: yes... what a horror! lol...

gtgw: hi back (:

okok i better go tag back at sheryl's or she'll throw rotten kiam neng at me.

2008-08-30T21:16:00.002+08:00

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEVVVVVVVVVVVVVVAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

WHOO! GO WALL.E!

The hols are here
but they don't feel like it.
According to Anqi, its 'horridays'
so yeah.
HAPPY HORRIDAYS!

I love going in to changing rooms.
yes, I do.
ha ha, jiaye and junyao.
i promise not to walk into the mirror anymore.
and to look more pregnant.

in nowhere of Vegas.
when the car broke down.
and we're all walking down the road,
strumming our guitars and singing at the top of our lungs.
chewing on soggy fries and playing slots in the desert of Nevada.
and of course, staring at the most interesting fake totem pole, willing it to change so we can make a move.

Just the life for me.

D.A.N.C.E.

2008-08-28T18:43:00.002+08:00

Okay,
I know I'm getting a tad bit depressing on my former posts but
I'm gonna try being a tad bit more high kay?

I love D.A.N.C.E. by Justice now.
Its supposed to be the song of inspiration behind my blogskin.
Haha.
Okay, not funny.

Gotten myself a purple guitar pick.
Just a cheap one and made it into a necklace.
If you're lucky,
I'll show it to you tomorrow.
((:
I'm real good in D.I.Y. stuff.

Can't wait for the potluck and amazing race.
ha!
fun fun fun...

i just realised how much i really love my girl-friends.
ha... sounds cheesy.
cheddar cheesy!
i can't live without all of you guys, arigatoo much!
of course not forgetting the guys like phillip and jian wei.
our other 'sisters'. ((:

I've made my stand.
I hope I can get it.
Wish me luck Sheena and Sheryl!

I'm sorry to end this on a low note but...
Whatever.
I can't deal with this committee anymore.
Yeah sure, I'll do my part.
Just don't expect me to give my soul to you guys.
Cause you're not worth it with this situation now.
Maybe when you get more mature and put on less of a facade.

~I swear its you......... and it ain't gonna stop.

2008-08-21T17:59:00.002+08:00

I fall.
And I always fall hard.
Plus, I always fall for the wrong people in the world.
S.H.E. would know what I mean yeah?
Don't worry, I.N.G. will know sooner or later anyway.
I don't wanna but I do.
And there's no legit reason for it.
SUCKS.

I just wanna keep on sleeping forever.
And have crazy beautiful dreams.
Cause i don't wanna wake up to a nightmare.
of a life.
so if you're like me,
i'll meet you in dreamland then.

goodnight.

2008-08-12T22:04:00.002+08:00

recently, I've seen lots of goodbyes.
all from the closest friends of mine...
what's going on?

you all claimed it was love.
love was supposed to last forever.
now you're all afraid to even look in each other's eyes.

is love something you should just treat lightly with?
then its not love, its like.
my dears.
don't plagiarize it.

i know that cause i made a major mistake before
and i don't wanna see my friends go that way.

don't give bullshit reasons when you wanna leave.
just say out why you really wanna leave.
what?
you scared of hurting their feelings?
bullshitting hypocrites.

grrrr.
i hate jerks.

stop contacting me, kamikaze.
irritating.
buzz off before i slap you to death with a fly trap.

2008-08-01T17:52:00.005+08:00

2nd post of the day.
just cause...

looking around at my peers.
they seem to be growing up so fast.
not wanting to savor every bit of life but rather slash through everything.

i heard some things and felt some things.
jealousy?
envy?
surprised is true though, never thought of her that way.
people change.
for worse in this case.

the way they write,
the way they carry themselves,
the way they act,
the way they only show a certain side of themselves to people.
its all very superficial.
very.

i wished you never met him.
maybe then i would still regard you with more respect.
maybe then you won't behave this way.
maybe then i wouldn't need to grimace and say,
"yeah, she's changed."
to everyone who asks.
maybe then i wouldn't need and want to escape my responsibilities
just so i need not witness things.

to duck.

2008-08-01T16:45:00.002+08:00

I'm in love with Mr. Tambourine Man.
He's mine forever!!!!
I meet him every jingle jangle morning.
And he's the only one who knows my favorite song.
cause he's my love(duh!).
and he's in love with me!

you can go guess who is that.... ;)

the 2.4km run is tomorrow.
with any luck i won't cough my heart out while running.
or my ass.
man, it just dawned on me that i'll be going for andersons' after the run.
won't that mean my entire run will be for nothing?
ugh.

addicted to Fueled By Ramen now...
whoo...
Phantom Planet, The Hush Sound, Panic At The Disco, Fall Out Boy(okay not so much), Paramore, Cute Is What We Aim For, Cobra Starship etc
i like good shit.
these are good shits.

stuff your face idiot.
with all the fake shit in the world.
or you can just simply fuck off.
a waste of my time.

i want my voice back.
now.

~headlight faces and candy of wool.

2008-07-19T20:33:00.002+08:00

i keep deleting what i wrote before.
backspace backspace backspace.
cause i don't know what to write.
i keep stopping halfway, blanking out.
i guess its cause i just do not know how to form the things i wanna write into words.
everything's a jumble.

well at least i know, listening to music alone in your room can be a thoughtful experience.
thoughtful as in you'll think a lot.
contemplate a lot.
imagine a lot.
and keep replaying scenes in your head over and over again.

scenes you'd wish never happened.
scenes you'd love to relive again.
scenes you'd know was a bad thing to start with.
scenes you'd regret.
like little music videos with the songs as background music.

I've lost interest.
in what i'm supposed to be committed to.
I don't feel like going in there to see things getting undone instead.
like a knot getting unraveled.
that was not supposed to happen.
never.

pain.
numbingly calming.
a release.
i fear it no more.
won't you understand me?

~compass cuts, red tears flow.

2008-07-10T18:27:00.002+08:00

Red Topless Volkswagen Beetles are HOT.
RED HOT.
I want one...
-------------------------------------------
Abbey Road.
God, how I would love to play there.
Its like the legend of all studios.
Radiohead, Muse, Gnarls Barkeley,
Panic At The Disco, Franz Ferdinand
and of course, the legendary band who
made this THE place to record music,
THE BEATLES.
-------------------------------------------
Green Tea sweets that taste like ice cream.
Lychee gummies that'll taste brilliant as a
drink.
Sour tapes that makes your face squirm.
Oh the treats that helped us through the
mundane classes.
-------------------------------------------
I still don't know much about you.
You're just there.
So quiet and so calm.
-------------------------------------------
I remembered how I would head to the
playground to play and I would always end
up playing with kids also there whom I've
never met and would forget by the next day.
It was so simple and innocent to just play
with everybody and anybody.
-------------------------------------------
hey moon, don't you go down.

2008-07-04T21:34:00.002+08:00

do we know everything?
do we need to know everything?
curiosity did kill the cat.
does it need to kill you too?

i thought not.
------------------------------------
ikuta toma.
hotness.
freak you, he's mine.
along with bden.
------------------------------------
get me something numbing.
best it be novacaine.
------------------------------------
never had i been so nervous.
never.
why?
------------------------------------
oh fuck.
terminated.------------------------

2008-06-21T15:08:00.002+08:00

Do I know?
No.
Do I wanna know?
No.
Good, lets keep it that way.

Nothing much to do.
I feel screwed up.
Like usual.

I can't talk to people.
I clamp up my feelings, especially to strangers.
There's always awkward silences in the conversations.
Its horrible.

Do I sound alright to you?
I feel like my head is filled with gibberish.
Yikes.

~cause you just might get it.

2008-06-17T20:01:00.002+08:00

I don't what the pong I'm doing.
I need something to hold on to.
Not something who/which will leave me all alone.
I hate being alone.

I don't intend to turn the entire post into something depressing.
I just can't seem to turn that around.
Sometimes I feel like...
never mind.
It doesn't matter.

Nothing matters anymore.

2008-06-03T16:54:00.003+08:00

O-EM-GEE.
A freaking Singfest one-day pass can cost up to $250.
HOW AM I GOING TO BE ABLE TO GO?

Goodbye beloved PATD.

Its not like I've not missed other favourite bands' shows(MCR, FOB, CS)
but this one stings like a bloody bumblebee and stabs like a knife from the Jamie Oliver kitchen utensils collection because they're not only coming to Singapore,
THEY'RE COMING ON MY BIRTHDAY.

yikes, its like morror horror on that fact.
give up SQ. give up. you're destined to never make it to any shows.

On a happier note,
I can now focus on persuading my mom to get me the PS2 version of Guitar Hero.

Someone confided in me a few days ago.
Never thought that the person's behaviour and attitude was actually due to a really traumatic incident.
Kinda explains a lot.
I mean, I've never been through that so I can't say how I can relate but I hope the person can recover soon.

Listening to Kill Hannah.
A band I found recently.
They've been around for quite a long time.
Got a great hit called Lips Like Morphine.
Not bad but I prefer another track, Crazy Angel.
If you've been online to Msn, my name would have been a lyric from the song.
"So what's the craziest thing you've done lately?"

Holidays have been sticking myself constantly to the computer.
I'm a keyboard/mouse potato.
The electricity bill had doubled because of it I think.
ha.

bleaurgh.
I'm feeling sick.
For no apparent reason.
(No, I'm not pregnant.)
Time to hit the sour sweets power!
whoo!
warheads here i come.

~knock me out.

2008-05-26T18:10:00.003+08:00

I went to watch Iltopie.
Yes.
The opening act for the Singapore Arts Festival 2008 by a group of French artists.
I only managed to catch a glimpse of :

~A big pink doll.
~Fireworks.
~A guy in a greenish suit.
~Balls of fire floating around.

This was of course due to the ginormous amount of people crowded around the edge of Clarke Quay.
Let me recount to you the interesting incidents that happened around me.

At first, I was actually standing at quite good spot with quite a good view.
Then,
a family of five, i think, came squeezing through.
The mother requested for us to let her son go in front to get a better view.
I'm fine with that and everyone moved to make space.
There was another family of four right in front of me and they realised that the people standing behind could not view the show properly so they requested for the people in front to sit down.
That seemed reasonable to me too and most people did get seated down.

Then, I realised, my mother who was seated a short distance away from me had an obstruction in her view.
It was a guy's rear end.
Yup.
That guy did not feel the need to seat down and decided to not only place his rear end in my mother's face, he also decided to ignore everyone and blocked anyone standing behind him.
Of course, I felt angered.
I thought he could not see my mother behind him and had a strong urge to indicate it to him.
My mother said that it was alright as she would just stand up later to view the show(it had not started then).
The guy then had the nerve to turn around, LOOKED at my mum and turned back like she was invisible.
His wife too, LOOKED down upon my mum.
She then gazed into my eyes and gave the nonchalant expression to me.
That was when I had it.
I so desperately wanted to just take a photo of the situation and post it here but my sister urged me not to.
In her words,"They'll get retribution when they deserve it."
She does not know that I wanted to be the one to deliver it to them.
The couple had a little boy and he saw my mother too.
He indicated to his mother that my mother was blocked but the mother shushed him.
The little boy then tried to move a little window for my mother to at least catch a glimpse of the show.

Now, why does the kid has more consideration than his parents?
I mean, aren't adults supposed to be more educated in this area?

Ugh. I feel disgusted.
Remember the family who asked people to sit down?
They were next to my mum and tried to ask the inconsiderate guy to sit down too but obviously being the inconsiderate guy he was, he turned a deaf ear to the request.
They then moved to the side to allow my mother to view the show properly.

The guy and his family just stood there in the midst of the seated people and stuck out like a sore thumb.
Thank goodness they were on the side.
Or I think many jeers would have been thrown to them.

I'm ranting.
again.

2008-05-18T18:35:00.002+08:00

Friday was...
rather sluggish.
During choir we had a shortage of people attending.
Plus, Jesse went for CIP and we had no one to lead warmups.
Of course Godwin took over.
Then Marcus, who I forgot was even there, decided to change him with Yingting and Anqi.
Things NEARLY got out of hand with some sacarsm thrown around.
I've never seen any choir committee be so public with their dislike of each other.
Dudes, keep it under your pillow will you?

Then we went for sectionals.
Taught Sleep, was remarkably fast but i was certain that the sops wouldn't remember their notes at all.
And then, of course, during combines, we went mute during certain notes.
I was sitting down and reading through the score while they sang,
and the sleep bug bit me.
Yeah, the two days of not sleeping till one had finally caught up with me.
I bet i looked like a fucking zombie.
*moans*

Today is even worse.
The weather is unbearable.
Humid with no sign of wind at all.
And i'm stuck with nothing to do except to blog and surf the Net.
to think that one week before i would be craving desperately for this kind of freedom.
Ironic.

Today is also Dora The Explorer's birthday!
I remember following all the lame and yet rather cute/fun instructions with Dora.
Plus reprimanding Swiper to stop swiping.
But, i hated Boots, the freaking annoying monkey.
Dude, if i were Dora, i would have taken off his boots and stuff it up his mouth.

I wish that my Mom would shut up.

~shut up and let me go. the ting tings.

2008-05-16T19:49:00.005+08:00

EIGHTEEN CHEFS ROCKS!
haha, i know i'm lagging behind but still...
I just went there with my cousins yesterday and I fell in love with the place!
the decor and ambience is just so chill-out-vibey.
great to hang out with friends or cousins in my matter.
plus theres this cute waiter to look out for.
ha! hes quite hot okay.
anyways, here are some pics from the trip to eighteen chefs and when i went to orchard with JIAYE! hots.
PLUS, I GOT MY PRETTY. ODD. CD!
double hots.

our scribbles. and a pic of AHS choir Musical!

this is to prove that even you are in RJC, you still can be retarded.
chopsticks!
spoons and forks!
the gooey cheese... or what its supposed to look like.

grp pic! (cousin:Lynn, sis, cousin:Joanne,me)

MRT with penguin!
EIGHTEEN CHEFS!
i like the cookbook section. especially the Anthony Bourdian book.
wall with cool graphics.

my minced beef cheese baked rice. looks like porridge.

shoes! me and sheryl agree that jiaye takes crappy shoes pics all the time. heee.
spastic jiaye.
us with wet hair, we were caught in the rain.
impromptu pic.
now the scarier version.

i'm done.

just wanna get these pics online or i'll never hear the end of it from penguin. ((:

2008-05-09T18:18:00.006+08:00

OMG.
i'm hooked onto Forever 21 and Glamour Kills.
in case you have no idea what those two are, they're shops from the US of A!
I know everyone knows Forever 21 but have you heard of Glamour Kills?
I was just browsing through myspaces and i saw the link on Cobra Starship's myspace.
You gotta check out these goodies!
(f21: forever 21, gk: glamour kills)

gk. this reminds me of harry potter but whatever, it looks dead hot.
gk. imagine wearing this to meet your boyfriend's parents. ((:
gk. mixtape! these kind of things are like the ancestors of Ipod.
gk. i love the television thingy, you know, when its like three in the morning and nothing is on...
gk. wooh! the 80s! when everything was BIG.

f21. i'm a Peta supporter so fur is only for that purpose. f21. wear this when you're really depressed. like shit.
f21. i dunno why but i think of the muttons from 987fm when i see this.
f21. lets embrace the mindless genre filled with bubblegum notes!

gk. what would glamour be w/o the pros and cons of it?

gk. again, emphasising how glamour is deadly. ha.
f21. peace baby, peace.
f21. okay, not one of my faves but quite all right.
f21. i'm a full-fledged sushi lover!
f21. you have to save these gentle giants. unless of course one day they decide to berserk and rebel against us. hee.

i'm reading scott westerfeld's books now.

he is a freaking genius.

i have one of his creations.

its from a trilogy, Uglies/Pretties/Specials.

i dun wanna explain too much.

you could borrow from me the Special book if you wanna but its the last of the trilogy so you might have difficulties understanding the book.

i'm reading another series by him.

on the second book now, called 'the last days'.

all i can say is that its about vampires.

ha, sheryl!

yupyups.

gonna sign off soon cause dinner is calling!!

i still wanna go to Singfest.

i've managed to persuade Sheena to go with me!(only if paramore is coming.)

please, let paramore come to Singfest.

((:

~guilty pleasure.

2008-05-05T20:18:00.002+08:00

i was just contemplating on the little things in life we usually take for granted.
CAUTION.
this is definitely not a mere shallow post filled with the little mudane details of life.

back to the topic.
i mean,
do anybody ever take a close thought to the way things are worked out?

for example,
we always take for granted in our parents.
the way they always help us clean up all the mess we've made.
physically and mentally and socially and emotionally etc etc...
the way we always feel like they're supposed to be there for us everytime and anytime.
the way they always make sure that we're unharmed, will never get harmed and wished that we're all wrapped up in bubble wrap so we can never get harmed.

we used to hate it don't we?
don't tell me you've never thought of this:
'why can't they just leave me alone?'
'shut up la. you're so naggy.'
'argh! i need to breathe, i need space! i need freedom!'

we used to find them annoying and constantly breathing down our necks.
like we're their puppets and always controlled by them.
financially, emotionally and so much more.

but if you'll just take a step back and go over everything they've done.
would you survive without them?
we all feel a sense of relief whenevr we come home cause its the time when we relax and
let go of all our stress and feelings, good and bad.
i mean,
i realised i actually spent quite some time chitchatting with my mom.
i could chat with her about anything.
from jurong to pasir ris.
that is actually a lot more than what i chat with my friends.

with my friends,
i can talk from jalan besar to tampines too
but there's always going to be limit.
there's always a line to not cross over in case offense is made.
but with your parents,
you can bitch about a certain person you like and they'll just give you their true opinion.
because in the first place,
they don't even know who or what the friend looks like.
plus, they don't care if the friend doesn't like them.
there's definitely a sense of freedom when you talk to them.

of course some stuff like BGR is better left unsaid in front of some parents.
unless your parents are totally cool and open-minded about these things.
then congratulations,
you have nothing to fear when you talk to them.

digressing too much.
lets take a break.

okay.
the main topic here is still that we're all too caught up in our own selfish thoughts and emotions.
nobody will really think about how the problem is going to get solved when we're mopping and glooming over it.
its hard to take a step back and think it clearly through.
or like when you're so determined with winning in a race,
why not take a step back and immerse yourself in the process of training?
enjoy each tiny bit of the training.
you'll find yourself more able to look around you and be more sensitive to things.

i guess this ranting has something to do with the choir's debriefing of our concert.
i remembered a sentence by mr tan(?) along the lines of appreciating the process and learning from it instead of being blinded by the thought of winning and getting awards and getting praises from people you don't even know.
i thought a lot over that sentence.
because we've been blinded by the fame and glory most of the time instead of being grateful to the things we went through to get us to the top.

whoo.
that's a lot of words.
i love digressing but its dangerous.
i get caught up easily.
just have to rein in the flow.
haha.

2008-05-05T17:46:00.002+08:00

OH MY FUCK.

PATD is coming to Singapore on MY BIRTHDAY.
seriously.
They're coming to the Singfest.
The venue and ticket details are not out yet but I so desperately wanna go!!!!
I've decided.
Anyone who wishes to get me a present for my birthday,
GET ME THAT TICKET!
pwease?
like really?
i wanna go...

short post. i just wanna go to the bloody concert.

2008-05-04T20:57:00.002+08:00

hi!
i'm being a naughty girl by sneaking up to blog instead of studying!
heehee.
but i did studied kay?
i studied for geog, social studies, amath and english!

i suddenly feel like eating chicken rice.
yeah i know, random.
still...
chicken rice is nice.
(:

i shall do a quiz then.
so long since i actually did one right.

LIST SEVEN RANDOM FACTS ABOUT YOU
1) I am seriously addicted to my Ipod. SERIOUSLY.
2) I think that rainbows have gold pots at the end of them and that clouds taste like marshmallows.
3) I've kissed my rabbit. (?!)
4) Sometimes, I like to just break out into a crazy dance to some upbeat song when I'm alone.
5) I hate being sweaty.
6) I won't admit it but I do cry when a particular scene in a movie/show is touching.
7) I like to watch food shows when I dine.

I hereby declared all of you tagged.
go, shoo, go do the quiz.

i'm hooked!
to another band.
again!
last time was PATD.
now there's a potential band i'm looking out for.
STEREOPHONICS!
yes.
they came to Spore for a show last week.
around the same time as Incubus.
of course, Incubus is hot too.
I love their breakout hit, Dakota.
Go check it out!
Their new album, Pull The Pin is quite worth the listen too.
lalala, i sense a new obsession!

here's a list of all the bands/singers i used to/am obssessed with: (in no order)
Avril Lavinge
Good Charlotte
Green Day
Blink 182
Fall Out Boy
My Chemical Romance
Electrico
Paramore
Gwen Stefani
The Hush Sound
Cobra Starship
Panic At The Disco
Incubus
Stereophonics
Franz Ferdinand
Simple Plan
The Fray
30 Seconds To Mars
Keane
Matchbook Romance
Maroon 5
The Click Five(before Kyle Patrick came)
Black Eyed Peas
The All-American Rejects
The Killers
Kanye West
etc etc...

as you can see...
i'm pretty musiced out.
so i'm searching for new bands and trying to evolve my taste in music.
but i definitely am not going towards the classical way.
makes me sleep.

~where are we going now?

2008-04-30T17:17:00.003+08:00

ahs...
the feeling of blogging after a long hiatus is rather refreshing.
people who visit my blog frequently should know that i often go on hiatus for no absolute reason, whenever i wanna.
then you should probably realise that this will be my only post till the midyears are over.
hahaha!

been mugging chemistry and geography simultaneously.
that is NOT good for you.
i definitely do not recommend that at all.
still, at least i have my old, trusty, dusty MP3 to help me through.
yes people!
i have gotten myself confiscated of my Ipod.
AGAIN!
i believed i've mentioned this 214712398429015790 times and its the same situation.
"talk back to me?! gimme your Ipod!"
*crys*
i swear i was merely trying to explain the situation. or maybe i was trying to spite them.
who knows?
WHO CARES?

i wanna make a lil thanking ceremony for those faithful people/things that were there for me while i went PMS and hyper on them.
THANKS TO:
~old, trusty, dusty MP3!
~my friends!(you know who you are... i'm too lazy to type out all of your names)
~PATD!
~CSS!
~Pudding!(my rabbit)
~Handphone games!
~Death Note anime!
~My air-conditioner!
~Green tea!
~Heroes!
~Food!
~Photobucket!
and many other stuff that i can't think of right now...
sorry.

yay!
i have tons of photos in my phone.
and i'm too lazy to transfer all of them into this post.
so wait until i got time arh.
haha... that will be longlong/nongnong arh...
i can hear jiaye sceaming in frustration le...
heeheehee!

~you and me... we go out.

2008-03-21T16:58:00.003+08:00

hey!
heyheyhey!
heyheyheyheyhey!
okay. i shall stop with the annoying greetings.
((:

good friday.
hmms....
i'm thinking on how to spend it wisely.
i've got three days to spare and i've done all of my homework!
hehe.
that gives me ample time to rest and relax!
kinda not used to the feeling of freedom.
cause i used to rush everything at the last minute.
oops.

TWILIGHT!
a great book.
REALLY.
i personally think that if Edward and Jasper were real life people,
they would be the two hottest guys/vampires available!
sheryl will agree.
too bad they don't exist and even if they do,
they're taken by bella and alice...
saddening really.

i decided to save up for a wallet that i'm lusting for.
its from Image2001 from Far East Plaza.
its a PATD wallet!!! (panic at the disco for all you noobs out there.)
they have a wide range of bands merchandise i was told.
i saw a FOB(fall out boy) wallet and Yellowcard tee too.
*lust*
it costs a forty bucks for the wallet and i must start saving to get the wallet!!!
I must I must I must begin to fast.
*starts chanting to self*

my computer is falling apart.
literally.
the safety screen for the monitor is coming out.
and the CD inserter isn't working too.
ah, this will be a good chance to ask for a laptop!
cool.

i realised that i seem to be typing random things that don't really have an ending.
cool!
ha!

beginning to fall asleep...
*yawns*
lack of rest yesterday has kept me looking and being a walking corpse.
seriously.
you do not wanna see me now.
you might think you're hallucinating.
iiiiiiiiiiiiii................

terminated.

hello

2008-03-15T21:17:00.002+08:00

HELLO!
i know i've not been blogging for a long time...
i can hear people rejoicing now.
*HALLELUJAH*

i'm now at my cousin's house,
koping her internet and computer.(harhar)

wahlao... i hate choir...
so many bloody practices
from eight in the morning to five in the evening.
like never ending lo...
somemore must dance and sing at the same time.

i decided that i want a PSP.
so must work hard then can use marks to persuade parentals to get me one.
you know, when my father confiscated my Ipod,
he actually said that i could sell my Ipod in exchange for a laptop?
i still said no... cause my Ipod is my life.
without my Ipod,
i will be a walking corpse.

i hate someone.
she has decided to make all our class tees the same style,
like a walking AHS advertisement.
like our PE shirt.
we'll all be living in prison soon...
everyone looking the same.
plus, she stopped access to the student council room to all student councillors.
unless you have a serious meeting needed,
and with a teacher in it,
will you then be allowed to enter the room.

unreasonable.
i want Mrs. Goh Chong Ann to return.
I think she rocks la.
Dr. Boon is cool too...
She's very hyper.

i'm spooking my cousin with the urban legends of our school.
the ones regarding Tower Hall.
haha.
OMG.
my cousin said that maybe the someone i just wrote about could be the person haunting the Tower Hall.
So dead-looking.
like ZOMBIE.
*uhhhhhh*

i suddenly miss Mr. Chua.
he is the coolest discipline master.
i want him back!!!
Mr. Chua if you see this,
please come back!!!
I think we need you a lot.

Sweeney Todd is my current obssession now.
bloody but wicked.
I want to watch the DVD.
get me the DVD?
pweettie pwease?

i missed the BBQ of 3A's.
i was stuck in choir.
we were singing Dumbele(a song praying for rain) and Ilay(a song praying for sunshine.)
and it was like raining. stopping. raining. stopping for like seven times.
we are guilty i confess.
so please don't come after me...

i hope that we'll have another gathering during June.
it sounded fun...
and our class tee will rock everyone's socks.
APPLETHREE!!!

ending here...
cause my fingers numb ler.
haha!!

~God, That's Good!!!

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2008-02-21T21:14:00.003+08:00

okay okay,
i know its waayyy long after valentine's
but i just wanna say thanks to everyone who gave me good wishes.
People that know who they are and know that i wish them all the best too.

moving on.
i'm quite contented with my class.
i mean they're all good people and nice ones.
except for the crazy pow shi yong.
i hope to get to know them much better.

choir is scaring me right now,
along with boring me out of my wits.
i think i've heard enough times of 'we're all in this together' for the rest of my life.
i sincerely wish to put that song to r.i.p after the concert
because if i hear theat bloody song again.
i swear i'll rip the sound system off by gnawing the wire.

i've got my Ipod confiscated again.
this time for listening to the songs too loudly.
this is like the 2948724981207th time?
and like usual,
my parents forgot that i still have my old, battered but nonetheless trustworthy creative
mp3 with me.
so i have to be content with that for a while.
((:

i welcome jiaye back to blogspot again.
after a long journey through xanga and livejournal.
let's hope you don't need to go through the trouble again.

tests are coming at one bunch at a time.
i'm at a loss on how to prepare for them.

just received news that we have to return to school on the first and last weeks of the June holidays.
*bad words pouring out*
that means only two weeks for us to rest and relax.
damn.

~white hot.

2007-12-23T14:48:00.000+08:00

choir farewell.

i have very little pictures as i decided that i wanted to enjoy the evening and not miss anything just cause i was taking pics.

thus, i will not be posting them.

it was really starvation at first cause we had to wait for the seniors to arrive and i was REALLY hungry.(hippo me! ((:)

it was nice to see the people you're used to in uniforms appear in dresses and suits.

the girls look fabulous of course.

the guys.... look normal.

yeah, like i don't see any difference anyway.

the games were interesting

and freakishly gay.

i searched around on blogs for vids and all.

i recommend godwin's blog if you wanna see how marcus and johnathan goh got things heated.

ha!

the holidays are coming to an end.

a ten-day end in fact.

EARLY RESOLUTIONS(because i'll be too busy playing on new year's day):

1) NEVER EVER DO EMBARRASSING STUFF.

2) ONE WORD: STUDY.

3) TRY NOT TO MAKE LIFE MISERABLE FOR SISTER.

4) GROW TALLER.

5) LOSE MORE WEIGHT.

6) SAVE MORE MONEY.

yeah.. i think thats all the impt stuff.

the non-impt?

well, its non-impt so i don't need to say do i?

leave it all to me, i will do the right thing, maybe i'll be everything i need.

i would give everything just for a taste but everything's here, all out of place.

losing my memory, saving my face.

~KT Tunstall: saving my face.

hopefully, everything will fall into place next year.

yeesh, yeah right.

poor vs rich

2007-12-13T21:55:00.000+08:00

feeling thoughtful today.
cause heard my father said some interesting stuff.
he said that actually Singapore is filled with poor people.
we don't have people freezing to death on the roads like other countries is only
cause we don't have winter.
that made me think.
what if our money runs out?

what if one day you turn poor?
we seem to take our money for granted.
excessive spending on clothes... food... entertainment...
we just can't seem to stop.
like our lives are just this superficial.
can you guys imagine how it would be if you can't spend money like you can now?
it forces you to improvise.

am going for the choir farewell dinner.
i hope it goes well.
did not manage to attend the farewell last year, and heard some VERY interesting stuff.
going to be wearing a DRESS.
how long has it been since i've donned a dress?
only recently did i start wearing skirts,
otherwise its always jeans and shirts, jeans and shirts.( a very comfortable combination indeed.)
suddenly feel so restricted
like when you wear jeans, you don't have to worry about accidentally showing your "inner" beauty but when you wear a dress/skirt,
you have to mind it always and mind yourself not to sit ungracefully.(which i often do... :P)

still, it instils a feeling in you.
like you suddenly become more ladylike and
feel like Grace Kelly.(until someone reminds you that you're actually not.)
and sometimes, guys pay more attention to you
as if you are a girl and not one of their "buddies".
ha!

heels...
not for me now...
pumps are more comfy and easier to walk in anyway.

homework.
dang.
stupid chinese.
lol!
work hard people, i know the two books are horrible stuff.

feel like saying thanks to some people.
thanks to:
JIAYE-- my crazy penguin-roasted barbie-baby friend
JUNNI-- my little christmas tree
JUNYAO-- my naima who has so many printers in her home
ANQI-- my best singing friend who is also a lao se lang

my holiday is more bearable with you guys
otherwise i might just kill myself over the boredom of choir and homework.

to my three choir girls, lets make sure we do some good to the farewell!
to my junni, i promise i'll find a day to go out with you with my utmost!

((:

sniffles...

2007-11-10T22:10:00.000+08:00

OMG...
My Chemical Romance is really coming to Singapore...
and i can't go.
*bawls like crazy*
they'll be here on the 11th of December
at the Max Pavilion.

thats at the Singapore Expo.

so near..... yet so far.

bloody parents.
i ain't see no fault in me going to that concert.
they promised too....
only to break it again.
like they did with the other promises made in my life.

i wanna go.....

2007-11-06T10:45:00.000+08:00

hey people!
i know its been long since i've posted cause my father wants to paint the house a new colour so all internet connections had to be cut off.
now my living room is bloody lilac and pink.
its like living in Barbie's dream home.

*shudders*

anyway, i have some photos for you guys again.

these were taken when me and jiaye when to Orchard.

this is called the fishball because you use your thumb and your forefinger and surround them at the apples of your cheeks. touch them and you'll get a fishball!!!!
my "pink" sneakers. they USED to be pink.
SHOES!
the signature twist sign
braces!!!!

this is actually root beer, ice lemon tea, garlic soya sauce, honey brown sauce and a piece of corn. all courtesy of Pepper Lunch. Thank You Pepper Lunch!!!!
the toilet is a good place to take pics.
SMILE!
an attempt to look like zhao cai mao...
no comment...

trying to look as if i'm really interested in the food. i think it worked!
TWIST!
MORE TWIST!
are you that scared of me?
our pepper lunch!

these were taken during the bazaar.

this was when me and junni went to Kobayashi in Simei.

the last day of school....

peek-a-boo!
our resident chiobus!!!
okay...
STRESS!

junni... the camel.

i saw some blogs....

i dun wanna say this but wha's with the chemistry thing?

quite scary doncha think?

and apparently someone thought that i still want to be her friend.

uhuh. right. you wish in your wildest dreams fatty.

you're not some super star all right.

nobody wants to be near you.

so just fuck off and leave us alone.

stop making your own stupid assumptions.

2007-10-22T21:34:00.000+08:00

OKAY!!!! HOLD UP.
THIS IS A WARNING FOR ALL READERS.
unless you intend to see pictures of two spastic girls making ugly faces in the MRT,
please press the back button on the top lefthand corner of your browser screen.
DON'T SAY I DIDN'T WARN YOU.

NO REALLY, DON'T.

so this is the 411 on what the pics are about.
me and Jiaye decided to go to Marina!!!! after choir on Friday.
the result?
a series of fugly pics of me and cute pics of jiaye!!!

octopus girl.... playing twist.
MRT station...
the toilet. i know what you're thinking but lets not think about it...
jiaye looking "cool" in a Billabong hat.
HOT PINK GUITAR!

one small learner's plate would have been enough you know...
spas me. freaked out jiaye, who is probably freaked out by me.
emo and gray.... crazy and gray.... notice the difference?

looks like i'm trying to eat my lips...

WABBIT!!!
i'm so sad. right.

wah! double wah!

TWO WABBITS!

there are more but i'll save them for a rainy day when i have absobloodylutely nothing to blog and post all the rest of the pics.

blogsurfing.

the waves are big.

my board carn balance on all the info and dirty secrets....

but i'll manage don't you worry...

OH I'LL MANAGE.

MONDAY!!!

ORCHARD!!!

i'm going like on an expeidition with jiaye to conquer all shopping centres in S'pore.

less painful than MT. Kinabalu.

mwahaha!!!

~don't waste your time

2007-10-15T11:27:00.000+08:00

holidays are starting to get boring.
i'm stuck at home with bad television programs.
just watched Scary Movie 4
and its crap.
never have i seen such a ridiculous movie.
i actually feel like watching more!
wow.

don't tell me what to do.
thanks for spamming my board though,
its quite dead.
i don't know much about jiaye but i intend to know her better.
you say she's not good,
but at least she treats me better than you do.
which part of what i say isn't the truth?
tell me.

you don't wanna face the fact that you're not very likeable?
not my problem.
but you had jolly well admit to what you've done.
or should i attach a video camera to you so you can see your true self?
blind, you're bleeding blind.

2007-10-11T11:28:00.000+08:00

EOYS ARE OVERRRR!!!!

omg, that was so cool.....
okaaaayyyy,

so...
me, jiaye and junni went Vivo to shop around after the exams.
and here.... are some of the priceless pictures...
quite some upside down pics so try to see luh.
we went to Candy Empire first, bought Maltesers(!)(i'm eating them now as i blog), sweets for my sister and a birthday gift for Joelle whose b'day was actually yesterday.
we later went to eat and felt so cold that we ran out to the playground area to warm ourselves up.

here we are, looking spastic but warm nevertheless.

there was this plastic statue thingy and we wanted to climb on it but apparently, Junni's shoes were slippery on the surface and she kept landing on our bags. lol!

fountain pictures!

okay i know this is random but jiaye, this is the rodent picture you wanted. its kinda cool... we found it near the school.

this was taken at the Converse shop where Junni gotten herself a new white/brown Converse shoulder bag!!! it was the last one available... so she was pretty lucky.

we later went to Toys R' Us and bought presents for Sheryl. There was this gigantic screen which you can see how you look on it. we took a picture and realised that we looked fat. thank you very much.

Converse shop again...

this was at TopShop where me and jiaye wanted to search for skinny jeans but it cost like $112 to $119(!) so obviously, having no moolah(money)... we took pictures instead! later we saw at least twenty other people wearing the jeans we wanted and i was so annoyed that i said i would blow up looking at another person wearing skinny jeans. Guess what? we saw even more people wearing those jeans.....

we went to Page One to browse for books and saw this.... nice.

as i headed for the restroom... jiaye and junni decided to take my phone and zilian.... these contains some of junni's most exclusive pictures.

act cool...

junni's BIG eyes.

the Page One bookshop.

some random picture of the mall.

junni picking her lips as her lips were really dry and she needed lipbalm but we had none....

these were taken at the skygarden and i'm asking you NOT to seat on the grass cause its really prickly...

the water pool where we waded in... it was quite cooling...

junni's i-don't-know-how-to-explain photo.

water pool!!!

we played so rowdily that water splashed on our clothes eventually and junni's pants looked she wetted herself. don't you think so?

jiaye's WHAT?! look and junni's i-also-don't-how-to-explain-this look.

never let jiaye near and photography gadgets cause you never know if you're her next victim...

FEET!

junni waiting for her pants to dry...

jiaye's i-want-to-commit-suicide photo.... commit what suicide.... the water is not even up till my knees.

some random bottle we found littered in the pool and what i guess is jiaye's foot.

we decided to lie on the floor and take some pictures....

jiaye, why you look so scared? scared i step on you arhs?

TWIST!
CHEESE!

we went to HarbourFront Centre later and saw this fishtank with a flatscreen TV in it playing the Tansformer's soundtrack and we thought that the fish will be afraid of the voilence in it.

saw a Sin's chocolate counter and junni thought that the deco looked like samples. she even asked if she could take one.

"samples"

we went back soon... and here are some of the retarded pics we took in the MRT.

jiaye said that this looked like the Singapore National Day tattoos the school gave out.

more photos....

okay then we went home by ourselves....

it was great fun, definitely but my shoulders and feet are aching now...

i'm not interested in you now.

if this is the kind of guy you are, forget it.

you DO NOT go around asking people, especially girls to be hookers.

what,you gonna be a gigolo?

shame on you.

you ask why people seem to hate you and i initially don't know.

but now i do.

you expect people to give you respect but you're not returning them with it.

you've only got yourself to blame.

you treat evey girl like backtyres, this one doesn't like me anymore, i go on to the other.

its not a marathon you know.

i take back my words saying you actually am a nice guy. cause you DEFINITELY am not.

you're no better than a dog.

even dogs are loyal to their masters.

what, you gonna call my cheebye or bitch like you did with so many other girls?

girls who did not even do you any wrong?

MY FRIENDS INCLUDE JUNNI AND JIAYE!

you don't like them?

fuck off.

2007-09-28T17:37:00.000+08:00

you're trying to get her back.

i can't believe that i'm helping you with that

its rather stupid

seeing that i'm sending the guy that i like to another girl who did not grab the chance.

forget it.

i'm quitting.

if you can run all the way back to school to hear her talk for less than ten words.

it means something.

something i'll never have.

saw a dead rodent today

while walking home with jiaye and we took a picture.

another one which i think just died a few minutes ago

because its not rotten nor squashed.

i can even see its teeth.

cool yet totally disgusting.

i'll upload it asap

our keychains we made in DNT

suck.

cause it looks like someone peed on it.

yellow.

~i was so jaded.

2007-09-23T09:23:00.000+08:00

mooncake festival.
it was boring
till we went to search for stuff(if you know what i mean)
then it got freaky.
too freaky.

mr seow has been thoroughly interrogated by us
muahaha.
we took a long time lighting up the lanterns.
damn matches.

me and jiaye went to suntec to buy donuts.
thanks girl! ((:
it was way shorter than the outlet at Raffles
we could have gotten the donuts in ten minutes if not for some delays.
we shared the donuts with xiying, corinne, jovyne and junni.
chowyen and sheryl too.

we won like the second prize for the china board thingy
and shermaine and claire won the third prize for the lantern making.
our prizes are so cheap-skate luh.
china board= tidbits in an environmental bag.
lantern-making= correction tape, pens and some note book.
i heard that the gruop who won the singing contest(1E with max and reynold and tiantian) got a file as a prize.
a file.
if we counted the minutes the group spent practicing at a rate of a minute to ten cents,
it'll be worth more than that la.

i hate my mom.

2007-09-19T19:16:00.000+08:00

ok
i'm too sick of you.
you can go assume whatever you want.
at least i know i'm clear and innocent.
I DON'T NEED YOU.
moreover.
you don't need to chase me out of your life.
i'll go first,
cause i don't wanna be any part of your messed-up, fucked-up, filled with spite, jealousy and whatever-you-are life.
i don't need to go through all your suspicions.
to think that i thought you were clever.
only to realise now that you are so shallow and narrow-minded.

i'm chasing you out.
you've caused too much trouble for me.
and i'm not cleaning that up.

i used to be so naive,
thinking that you were cool and all.
now i take a closer look.
and i see a hypocrite.
you critisize everyone.
like you're any better.

i don't need to explain anything to anyone.
cause i know what i did.
and i only apologise for what i think i've done wrong.

i won't be sending you off
but if you want
i can provide laughter.

you caused misery in my life.
whatever.
who's the real faker?

pssh.
why am i wasting my time on you?

2007-09-18T18:41:00.000+08:00

okay
i saw that.

if you dun wanna seat near me
say it.
to me truthfully
and tell sunli.
i can arrange.

i dun get it.
if you're still angry about the incident.
i apologised.
sincerely,
from the bottom of my freaking heart.

if you're angry about the demerit thing
its not like i never own up right
i did.
i went up when she called for me
and i even asked her if i needed to sign the green form.
in the end i got the form too right?

you guys keep talking about like i have no fucking idea
i do.

i'm tired.
i dun wanna do this thing anymore
just let me off.

i smile and ask if you need help
you ignore me
i try to strike a conversation
you walk away
i open my arms
you fled like i have a disease

nice.
thank you.
i just ask of a favour.
tell me how you really feel about me
and tell me how to change that to a more positive way.
dun hide it all
and let it out behind my back.
cause i still will know.

~i wake up
its a bad dream
no one on my side
i was fighting
but i just feel too tired.

2007-09-16T21:34:00.000+08:00

um
my mother watched 881 yesterday when we were watching Evan Almighty
she came out red-eyed
apparently it was very touching
so most likely going to watch it this coming weekend.

science test tml
and am going to try out the new class seating plan.
i dun see why we have to change seeing that we'll be changing our seating to according to registration numbers in less than three weeks.
stupid person
why go complain la.
you want you go seat alone la
many teachers will be very happy to see you seat next to them.
ugh cause so much trouble

so the vanessa hudgens thing is rather hot now
what with the naked photos
i personally find it quite disturbing
she probably wanted to spice things up
but i dun think it calls for such a desperate measure
kinda pulls her worth down
look where it brought her
it is also the person who exposed the photos fault
but if she did not take those photos
nothing would have happened
blame it on yourself lo

~i go back to black

2007-09-15T17:27:00.000+08:00

going to watch Evan Almighty later with my cousins.
hope that its good.

went blogsurfing and saw some disturbing stuff...

my dear fatty,
change your ways
before you get into more deep shit than you already are in.
you wanted attention
you must very happy now that you're getting it
but by this way?
its sad.

not going for the europe trip with choir
cause mom said might be going to taiwan so expenses will be huge
thus...
*sniffs* byebye lovely vienna!

~watch it burn, let it die, cause we are finally free tonight.

2007-09-01T23:10:00.000+08:00

yupyups
i know
i'm a fugly b!tch huh
but you guys were never really good to me
from the way i see it
you people everytime asks me to do things for/with you
and when i need you guys
i don't see you in near vincity
whenever you guys say something, i'm always left out
then when i inquire, i see awkwardness
do friends do that to each other?

i feel bad for doing that thing ok
i apologised and i meant it
really.
didn't expect to see your indifference
you're a normal human being you said
i understand that
i just don't understand how come you don't care
so i was not really a friend huh
just a person who you used and make to wait while in the end i walk home alone

can't say i'm very happy.

happy holidays
wonder what shit will i come up with in this week for homework

i hope choir will cut down.
don't really enjoy it very much
didn't enjoy it last time
don't think will enjoy it in the future

i'm still grateful for the guys who actually try to make me feel better
even if they hated me
i think.

gomenasai.

liar

2007-08-24T17:34:00.000+08:00

okay.
i know i said that i'll not bog for a long time.
but it just so happens that my dad alowed me to touch his laptop again so...
yeah.

i'm just too sick to be following you around.
you and your lil' friend.
so you can go off with him,
and leave me alone like you always do.
use me like you always do.
whatever.
this time i'm walking out on my own.
good luck being alone by yourself.

mdm lee.
what can i say.
lmao.

~we dun fight fair.

shut up.
i've got no time for you.
even if i do,
i dun wanna make time for you too.

long time

2007-08-22T19:26:00.000+08:00

heys long time no see...
i'm using my dad's laptop so tats why i can blog.
otherwise my lagged comp will once again disappoint me...

my life has been quite good.
cept for a few problems i have to see to.

you don't have to be my friend anymore...
i don't want you to be too.

like one of those love songs
you make my knees weak
you make it hard to speak
you make it hard to even breathe.

yesterday you drew me a picture.
it was of an orange and red hot-air balloon.
in the corner in your tiny handwriting it said,
"we'll fly away someday."

here's to your bestfriends.
the only ones who you can depend on for the best lunchtime conversations,
the only ones who will ask you how to make-out with their boyfriend,
because they don't know which way to move their tongues. =]

i love quotes.

one last quote.

girl: i mean, when i look at you, my head's telling me that your not perfect, that noone is.
but then just take alook at my heart. its screaming in my head's FACE that you are absolutely perfect. do you get what i'm saying?

boy: yeah i know. i feel that way when i look at you,
except my head says your perfect too, along with my heart. [:

i hate my form teacher.
thank you very much.
i love mr.chua and mr. benjamin tan.
i thank you again.

i wun be posting for a long time after this post.
so pls keep tagging though...

blue foam can get pretty messed up near me,shipei,sheryl,jolyn and nicholas...
poke poke.
stab stab.
i see the light.
MUAHAHA!

xiying is the supra kopper.
we love her for it,
though i dun think nicholas loves her much .

she's your beautiful girl. you're still my only world.

2007-07-26T10:40:00.000+08:00

The more [x]s the dumber you are.
18 or lower means you'e not stupid.

[x] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were talking.
[x] Gum has fallen out of your mouth when you were NOT talking.
[x] You have ran into a glass/screen door.
[] You have jumped out/off of a moving vehicle. (Buggy car at East Coast)
[x] You have thought of something funny and laughed, then people gave you weird looks.
So far: 4

[] You have ran into a tree. (Who, hasn't right? Say yes!)
[x] You have tried to lick your elbow
[] You just tried to lick your elbow (not that stupid yet)
[ ] You never knew that the Alphabet and Twinkle Twinkle Little Star have the same rhythm.
[ ] You just tried to sing them.
So far: 5
[x] You have tripped on your shoelace and fallen.
[x] You have choked on your own spit.
[x] You have seen the Matrix and still don't get it. (I didn't watch it.)
[ ] Your hair is/was blonde.
[x] People have called you slow.
So far: 9
[] You have accidentally caught something on fire
[x] You tried to drink out of a straw, but it went into your nose/eyes.
[x] You have caught yourself drooling when you wake up.
[x] You've fallen asleep in class (Again, who hasn't?)
[] If someone says fart you laugh.
So far: 12
[x] Sometimes you just stop thinking.
[x] You are telling a story and forget what you were talking about
[] People are often shaking their heads and walk away from you
[ ] You are often told to use your inside voice.
[ ] You use your fingers to do simple math.
So far: 14
[] You have eaten a bug.
[] You are taking this test when you should be doing something important (Science Ppt!)
[x] You have put on your clothes on backwards or inside out.
[x] You've looked all over for something and realized it was in your hand or pocket( hehe, my wallet)
So far:16
[ ] You sometimes post bulletins because you are scared that what they say will happen to you if you don't.
[x] You break a lot of things.
So far: 17
[ ] Your friends know not to use big words around you
[x] You sometimes tilt your head when you're confused
[x] You have fallen out of your chair before
So far: 19
[ ] When you're laying in bed, you try to find pictures in the texture of the ceiling
[x] The word ummm is used many times a day.
So far: 20

i guess i'm alright ba...

2007-07-26T10:25:00.000+08:00

Chapter 1: Personal
Initials: AOSQ
Middle name: i dun have middle name...
Birthday: 03081993
Birth Place: Singapore
Current location: Earth
Height: 1.59cm ha! i just grew 1cm.
Hair length: Long and layered
Eye color: Brownish-black
Piercings: Earlobes
Birthmarks: ssshhh, i've got one on my butt. (jkjk)

Chapter 2: Family
Do you live with your parents: yeah, i'm not rich enough to live on my own.
Do you get along with your parents? sometimes.
Are your parents married/separated/divorced? Married and happy.
Do you have any siblings? Yes, my every annoying sister.
What pets do you have? hamster.
What are their names? bullet the junior. the old one died.

Chapter 3: Favorites
City: New Jersey and Los Angeles.
Season: Spring! Fresh, fresh air.
Clothing brand: Anything that looks good on me.
Color: Limegreen,white, red and black.
Number: 5

Chapter 4: Do You...
Sing in the shower? GUILTY.
Write memos on your hand? GUILTY.
Call people back? INNOCENT.
Believe in love? GUILTY.
Sleep on a certain side of the bed? GUILTY. the sides.
Wear glasses or contacts? Specs!

Chapter 5: Have You Ever...
Gone skinny dipping? Nah
Worn braces? Nah
Broken a bone? Nah
Had stitches? Nah
Punched someone in the face? in the face no, kick the person's balls, YES.
Skipped school? Think so.
Taken painkillers? Panadol
Gone SCUBA diving? Nah
Been stung by a bee? Nah
Thrown up in a restaurant? Nah
Been to overnight camp? Yes, who hasn't?
Written a letter to Santa Claus? Nah
Had detention? Nah i quai kia.
Been sent to the principal's office? Nah
Been called a bitch? not in my face though...

Chaper 6: Who/What was the last..
Person to IM you? eehhh, i forgot...
Person to call you? Mother
Person you hugged? Father
Thing you touched? Keyboard
Thing you ate? Chocolate [;
Drank? Water
Thing you said? eehh, i forgot...

2007-07-24T15:45:00.000+08:00

oh fag you.

i'm so sick of you and your stupid words.

if she's so good, why the hell was she in probation?

dun tell me she is good in being hardworking.

cause its not she is hardworking

its cause you guys are i quote, "biased shit".

we worked hard too.

we just dun think its worth working hard for this crap anymore.

i'm done and gone.

DEATHLY HALLOWS!!!

so exciting.

for the first time i dun think the 1st chapter is boring.

but the ending can be better off and less cheesy.

every lesson now in school is so friggin boring la.

i just wanna sleep on and on while the teacher

drone on and on.

are we forsakened?

if we are,

that's just so pathetic.

2007-07-21T14:38:00.000+08:00

YO PPL (:
shipei here!
okay shuqing has been baned frm com,
so ill blog for her on and off frm now xD
lala.

shuqing is officially addicted to DONUT FACTORY! :DD
and todae has been an interesting day.
dats it.
she will post further elaborations when she can (x

i shall be nice and NOT publish my blog here.
haha takecare ppl <3

double double toil and trouble

2007-07-19T10:23:00.000+08:00

today is a good day cause i doubled posts.

but i'm at war with my parents.
i hate them for comparing me with my sister.
they bu shuang me so they confiscated my mp3.
they forgot that i have my handpone lo.
dumb parents.
clever me.

i recommend a website for stupid retarded games.
www.maggiemarket.com
click on the small links on top for various games.
i like the facial house them most.
cause that's the only one i'm pro in.
haha.

freezing in the library now...
my fingers are not responding anymore...

what happens when you know you're headed to a dead end but you still go on?
would you die?

its war.

~its okay and i'm just feeling down.

-terminated-

the ping pong song

2007-07-19T10:14:00.000+08:00

everyone seems to be spamming someone nowadays...
what is wrong people?!
don't insult the person you hate.
otherwise your just as good as shit.

lagged computer

2007-07-18T10:25:00.000+08:00

yay. i'm in the school library blogging.
cause my comp is lagged.
as usual.
i'm so bored now...

WHO THE FUCKING HELL IS OLD MAN?!
sick of the game arhs...

Gwen Stefani is coming to Singapore.
August 14th is the exact date.
I can see my sister jumping for friggin' joy now cause her idol is coming.
I will be the ultimate guai kia and remind her that her PSLEs are coming so most likely she would not be able to attend the concert.

I'm such a good girl and sister.

the sweetest drug

2007-07-12T09:49:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone, it's Diapers here! :D
Shuqing's lazy to blog, so I'm like guest blogging for her.
We're currently @ the library doing the To Kill A Mockingbird thing for Literature!
Zomg, it's boring, the printer's like spoilt 'cause there's no paper.
And we can't print out our stuffs T____T

Haha, whatever, we're just bored.
Oops, Mrs Rod's coming, better get back to work! [x

-Diapers@ http://www.xtwentythree.blogspot.com
:D

the perfect denial

2007-07-04T11:45:00.000+08:00

i'm so sick now.

not the real kind of sick but the digusted kind of sick.

cause i don't want to continue this anymore.

i don't get credit for anything.

at least my REAL friends are nice and loyal.

you know who you are.

GIRL.

HARRY POTTER IS COMING!!

July 12th and 21st!

THE MOVIE AND BOOK!

i'm so excited...

can wait patiently no more...

i <33>

art is slack!!!

haha. everyone was blogging or playing during art cause i don't think that Ah Neo cares lo.

i've changed my blogskin le...

feel so girly.

not that girly is bad though.

i like girly.

bloggie

2007-06-24T12:16:00.000+08:00

school holidays...

boring but when they're going to end,

you don't want to leave them...

contradicting yeah?

200 pound beauty.

ultimate chiobu after the surgery.

and i love the song [Maria].

i love kitties!!!

miaow.

*blissful smile*

shipei uses bad english.

i'm an arsehole,

not an asshole.

*evil laughter*

nothing, i just felt like laughing evilly.

IS THERE SOMETHING WRONG WITH IT?!
no of course not.

i'm pyscho...

and UBER PROUD OF IT.

so shoo off if you don't like it.

*swats flies*

2007-06-19T16:02:00.000+08:00

i hate my computer.

its so freaking crappy.

resorting to my father's laptop.

deviantart is cool.

uber-cool.

30 seconds to mars's the kill is so hawt now.

to me,

that is.

my icecream...

okay there's a pic called iPad...

i think you should see above la...

2007-06-10T20:46:00.000+08:00

pizza hut.
pizza hut.
kentucky fried chicken
and pizza hut.
macdonalds,macdonalds,
kentucky fried chicken
and pizza hut.

people are scary.
the people i know
are no longer the same.
the change is rather drastic.
i'm frightened out my wits.
its as if i don't know them anymore.

when things go outta hand,
thats when people start killing each other.
not literally but i think they actually really wanna kill each other.
if you think about it.
you're caught in it even if you don't wanna.
its just a BIG whirlpool and its sucking everyone in.
its slowly turning into a black hole.
and i don't think anyone'll survive.

i don't know how to stop it.
not alone.
so i think we're all doomed.
REALLY.

~the impact is forever.

lalala

2007-06-08T18:19:00.000+08:00

ahs choir forum.
what can i say.
its cool.
the pictures are kinda embarassing yet fun.
it brings back memories.

you can see that i have absolutely nothing to talk about.
i'm bored.
*yawns*

Men in White is good,
go catch it.
there's sexual humour in it though.

blahdila.
i'm just trying to fill out space.
gimme some credit man, seriously.

happy early birthday. good luck too.
~now everybody do the propaganda.

blah

2007-06-07T14:34:00.000+08:00

don't feel like blogging today.
but still am going to.
bought the Green Day CD from china.
heard it a few times and was quite contented with what i've bought.
there are surprises in the choices of songs.
some don't sound like what Green Day would normally do
but they're good.

not happy with my life at all.
nope.
never have,never am and i don't think i ever will.
not much i can do about it either.
sadness engulfs me.
just let me wallow in it for a while.

stop.
stop me right now.
stop me from thinking about you
and hurting myself by doing that.

~missing link on the brink of destruction.

camera

2007-06-01T20:36:00.001+08:00

today is just not a good day for me.
i lost my camera.
i think i lost it in the airport.
so i carn post the pics yet
till my father emails me the pics.
sorry.

today my cough,flu and fever has not subsided yet
so i came late for the report card thing and homework handing in.
went all the way to school for nothing.
ass.

at least i found out some stuff about me, my friends and somebody.
i promised to change and so i will.
not so sure about my friends though.

still not gna reply my tags yet
maybe cause i'm too pissed out to.
so apologies for the grouchiness.

go to hell with your games.
i'm sick and done with you.
good riddance.

~aren't we all the damned and vicious.

shanghai

2007-05-22T20:44:00.000+08:00

so tonight is the night when 2F bids Singapore goodbye for nine days.
so long.

you did not reply.
i guess that means no.
well, nice getting to know you then...

i'm so sick.
mentally and physically,
i think i'll just act dead.
easier that way.

love ya guys so much for being with me.
will miss you.
will you miss me?

stay up till 4 in the morning and the tears are pouring.

digi camera!!!!

2007-05-18T18:09:00.000+08:00

WHAHAHA!!!
i got a digi cam!!!
its not the Sony Cybershot that i wanted
but its Panasonic and better.

china.
shanghai.
what could happen?
loads.
use your imagination people.

i'm quite bored.
not much has happened.
something exciting happen please.
lol.

~you are every line, you are every word, you are everything.

what.
not impressed.

photos

2007-05-16T18:03:00.001+08:00

BLOGGER FINALLY WORKS!!!!
i'm was so freaking pissed at blogger for the past week la.
not only i could not post,
i could not change my template too.
thanks to everyone who put up with my irritating skin for the past week!!!
ARIGATOO!!!

photos i got before is found above.
i'll do the explanation in the next post.
sorry!!! cause no time...

thats a reason why i carry on when i lose the fight.

photos

2007-05-16T18:03:00.000+08:00

2007-05-11T17:10:00.000+08:00

hey people!!! blogger is screwed up so i'm converting to xanga.
www.xanga.com/primadonnadecimation
loves.
<3

guest

2007-05-03T15:17:00.000+08:00

heyhey venus will be blogging for me in this post!!!

hahas shuqing is like SOOO excited.
anyway she has reason to be excited;DD
this is so fun guest blogging<3
LOLOL...

we are slacking in the library again(LIKE YESTERDAY)
whee~~!
i just love this coldcold airconditioning.
its makes me freeze to death.
;D

SHUQING IS MY DEATH GOD.
and my 守护天使(:
she has deathgod like eyes and a freaky smile.
which never fail to spook mexD

if you show her pics of 炎亚纶 and 飞纶海;
she'd scream to high heaven.
how worthy of a soprano.
hahas she kinda like gets acid in her eyes.
i'll work hard to destroy her;dontcha worry!
LOLOLxD

oks i know this is weird guest blogging;
i can think of anything to blog about.

TRALALALAS~!
im so tired.
AND MY SPEAKERS DONT WORK.
random.
i love you<3>

loves<3;venus

be

2007-05-01T13:05:00.002+08:00

i'm pissed out.

went to the NS40 exhibition on Sunday.
it was like total NCC all around.
there was a performance by the drama company.
they were good at imitating the Black Eyed Peas.
the girls had strong support and vocals.

watched Nanny Mcphee.
she is HOT.
ha.
its so funny.

dedication of a song.
Christina Aguilera's Beautiful to a good friend of mine
who is always worrying about her seniors not liking her.
The song should tell her that she is beautiful and no need to worry at all.

check out the new song from Gwen Stefani, Don't Get It Twisted.
funky beat and nice techno voice.

i'm so over it.
he obviously is so thick and dense that he doesn't realise his mistakes.

goldfish.
i bet you were laughing along with them.
i bet you did not know that it hurts me a lot.
you never care, do you?
i hate you but love you all the same.

~my browser has frozen at www.duh.com

GWH

2007-04-21T17:49:00.000+08:00

GOLD WITH HONORS!!!
ha! i guess everyone knows it already
but its nice to say it again.
i'll post the pictures soon.
once i get my wire back.
grateful for Mr. Toh doing all he can for us.
He was down with high fever on that day but took a jab so he could conduct us.
so nice!

i've got so much too say...
but i kinda forgot alot of it.
spastic i know...

my headache has gotten worse.
my entire head feels like its being thumped by an elephant.
my ears and nose are blocked so i can't even hear myself talking.

went to renew my passport photo.
i still look spastic if i say so myself.
saw Jinni and Farris there.

I said it.
I initiated the break-up.
What did he say?
"sure, its okay."
I don't feel sad though.
I feel free and relieved.
I'm glad i took good advice.

someone once told me he/she wants to be an introvert.
i'm thinking if i should too.
since i'm already half an introvert.
it'll be easier to live life.
less worries and stress.
the disadvantage is that you'll have no social life.
no fun whatsoever.

Tags replies:
xiying and corinne: <3>

invisible

2007-04-13T10:18:00.000+08:00

i'm so sick of being left out.
i know you don't mean to
but still...
i'm just invisible i guess...
i'll just keep quiet and keep a distance then...

i wanna find someone whom i can talk to
but everybodys just too caught up in their little worlds.
even HE carn talk.
so what do i do?
i keep quiet.
i've been trained to do that since i was born.

no temper.
no arguments.
no nothing.
and no everything.

i'm a selfish, stupid attention grabber i guess.
still i know when i'm not wanted.
which is practically every moment of my life.

refuge can come in many ways.
like blood, music etc.
maybe i should try some popular methods of de-stressing and
maybe, just maybe i can find freedom.
liberty.

oh the feeling of euphoria.
so high and fine.
how i would do anything to get that feeling
but all i have is the bitter taste of reality.
still...
a girl can dream can't she?

~silence is golden. fuck that sentence.

lol

2007-04-12T17:05:00.000+08:00

today is just not my best day.
i carn go out cuase he's sick.
my math test went horribly.
my friend pang seied me the entire day.
life is just not going my way.

i'm quite damned from top to bottom i just realised.
if you don't understand that, don't try to.

and we'll all dance along to the tune of your death.
we'll love again, we'll laugh again, we'll cry again and we'll dance again.
but its better off this way so much better off this way.

moody, emo, stupid, grouchy, touchy, mean, bitchy,
all these still does not sum up my feelings right now.

death note 2 is now reeling bit by bit into my mind.
cause i've been watching it over and over again five times le.
its either that or JIAYOU JIN SHUN.
i rather take Ryuk.

never again and never again.
they gave us two shots in the back of our heads and we're all dead now...

Thank you Glen, Jeremie and Shipei for teaching me the math questions.
though they just lend me their note for me to copy.
Sorry for bothering you guys!

happy birthday to you.

today's song recommendation is Danity Kane's Show Stopper.

~and we all fall

down.

shine

2007-03-31T23:18:00.000+08:00

hey,
i'm so bored.
no mp3, no computer, cell phone's down.
blah.
nothing looks nice on TV too.
life is so sianz.

we performed!!!
on show and tell!!!
i'm so lagged!!!
cause well...
cause i'm banned.
we did okay,
i screwed up though.

we went to the Lion's Home too.
the pic up above is the class photo we took there.
i'm so blocked out.
the old folks are so dao la.
we say hi,
then they look away.
carn be all deaf can they?

i beginning to dread choir each day i live.
its so World War III in the music room.
plus we're not allowed to eat any heaty stuff anymore.

i'm here but you don't see me. even if you do, it seems like its unintentional. i like you but i have someone else on hand. i'm so sinful. what do you think?
i wish you would think of me always.
i wish you would share your music with me.
i wish you would pay more attention to me.
i wish you would like me the way i do.
i wish you would forgive me.
oh how i wish.

today's song recommendation is Christina Aguilera's Candyman.
sick song turned sweet.

~oxycontin genoxide. adolescent suicide.

shinhwa?!

2007-03-24T12:51:00.000+08:00

screams and thumping.
no, that's not something wrong.
thats my sister and her friends dancing.
yes,
they scream and keep thumping the ground.
lol.

didn't went for choir today
cause my throat and nose are not working well.
i still can breathe la but singing is no way.
plus i have a slight fever.
stupid flu bug.

i want my mp3 back.
please?

what the ending will be,
will be bad for both of you.
watch your actions.

i'm waiting for the Nokia5300.
the one in Fall Out Boy's music video.
so nice la.
i want the red one.

carn wait for the performance.
i hope we'll be alright.

poor ada.
she has to seat next to funny man.
cause aaron decided to change tickets for the concert today.
so...
good luck ada!

heyhey youyou,
i don't like your girlfriend!
i think you need a new one.
not me though.

today's song recommendation is Take That's Shine, Chris Daughtry's It's Not Over and Mariah Carey's It's Like That.

~why don't you like me? why don't you walk out the door!

bleurgh

2007-03-21T11:21:00.000+08:00

I HATE SUNLI!!!!
go to hell la.
eurgh.
did you know that she made us go for the rehearsal
in the middle of our lunch?
she did not tell us what time the rehearsal started.
she made us dump our food away
so she could carry on with her bloody rehearsal.
Chowyen,Sheryl,Shipei and me had to apologise and bow to the class.
Sheryl was exempted cause she had a stomachache.
What the fucking hell.
eurgh,
pissed.

i'm so disgusted by someone in our class.
i think the whole class is.
she is annoying and irritating.
its sad that she's only after the guys.

i'm down with flu and cough now.
Strepsils rock.
haha, only shipei would know.

okay....
cause i'm in the computer lab now
and Jeremie and Farris are like quarreling over how to do the art folio.
WHATEVER!
now Jeremie is thanking Farris.
Why am I writing this?
cause it's happening right behind me lo.
and i have nothing else to write.

i'm banned from computer
and only released in Saturdays and Sundays
cause my MOTHER says that i spent too much time online.
what the hell la.
once per two days i go online.
plus its only half an hour la.

GREAT, MORE MISERY.
as if i did not have enough already.

today's song recommendation is Avril Lavinge's Girlfriend.
shucks.
she's gone from emo-goth-punk to plain slutty.
what has the world gone to?

~Insanity is OUR priority. `chowpeiQINGyi<33 `07

fall out

2007-03-18T12:07:00.000+08:00

tuition sucks.
i swear.
my new science tuition is super boring.
okay, so the teacher is nice and all
but the lessons are the same.
due to my extremely clever brain(just joking),
i realised that i managed to get full marks for all worksheets!!!
i told ya i am clever.

so hooked to Fall Out Boy's new songs.
their cd is worth the buy.

todays the last day of the March holidays.
shucks.
can't wait for June to come.
the entire week i had no life,
just work and work.
like i said to Shipei,
i only have life during June and December.
no life for the rest of the year.
sad.

watched Death Note with my family.
they said it was okay.
Mum said that the death god was weird but cute( the ugly but adorable kind).
My sis said that Light was ugly and that L was weird.
My dad wanted to watch other stuff.
Lol?!

today's song recommendation is by The Pussycat Dolls's Wait A Minute featuring Timbaland.
that guy's burning hot now.

~just a painter but drawing a blank

glamorous

2007-03-15T18:36:00.000+08:00

i'm so tired.
from finishing all my homework.
school and home.
oh well,
at least i'm done.
that's something to celebrate from.

so i've heard
that a particular guy.
is not very happy with me and shipei.
apparently,
Mr. I-Love-Scolding-People-When-I'm-Not-So-Good-Myself
thinks that me and shipei should not be in the SYF performing group.
Well,
i personally think that this guy, who doesn't respect the conductor,
should ask himself if he is really that good at singing himself
and that if he is,
then he has the right to scold me and shipei.
If he isn't,
then he better butt his way out of our lives
cause we need no hypocrites who are so superficial.

I quote from Chowyen,
"everyone is two-faced. its just that some people hide it better."
or something like that.

tomorrow's the dance practice.
sadly,
i have a bad feeling that not much people gonna show up.
we are very disorganised but at least we try our best.
Pearlyna and Jolyn deserves praise cause they really gave it all.
especially Pearlyna.
so,
*applause loudly*.
((:

today's song recommendations is Fergie's new single, Glamorous and Muse's Starlight.
two songs for you to listen closely to.

~black holes and revelations.

KO ONE

2007-03-08T21:12:00.000+08:00

ahh, i'm hooked to Zhong Ji Yi Ban le.
i borrowed the first disc from Sheryl and now i can't stop watching.
okay, i admit that Yan Ya Lun is cute la.
i can hear Sheryl and Xi Ying screaming now...

We went to Sakae Sushi today.
it was full of screams, laughter and lotsa fighting for Chawanmushi.
see,
Shipei bought a bowl of Chawanmushi.
We all wanted a piece of it,
Shipei won't give us.
So we made her laugh till her Chawanmushi on her spoon fell off,
then we grabbed it. (sounds wrong.)
We did something else bad too.
We mixed lots of Wasabi,
pickled ginger and soy sauce with a prawn tail as a granish.
the waiters and waitresses were like looking at us weirdly.
lol!

then later,
Sheryl started laughing till she wanted to pee.
Then Shipei and Xi Ying started laughing too.
Only i was there to try to bring them back to their senses.
It failed horribly and i ended laughing quite a bit too.
Everyone next to us were staring at us.
Can't blame them,
we were acting like crazy school girls.
((:

I feel so good with friends like Sheryl,Chow Yen,Gracia,Corinne,Xi Ying,Charmiane,Pearlyna and Shipei.
I still love Venus,Jianle and Tingen of course
but i feel relaxed.
Sometimes, i wonder if i will even attend school without my friends.
Without a particular person now,
i feel so much better,
i know i can count on my real friends to be there and not just think of themselves.
I'm so grateful for that.
I just take that the 'friendship' i had once,
as a challenge for me to train my patience
and that now my training is done.
I need not suffer anymore.

i feel guilty.
i asked Jeremie to bring the wire to plug the mp3 into our class's speakers.
yet i did not use it at all.
argh, i feel so bad.
plus i didn't even say a sorry.
i hope i won't get punished for that.

today's song recommendation is My Chemical Romance's Kill All Your Friends.
sadistical but cute nonetheless.
I have the song and two new songs i recommended long time ago on my blog.
go check it out!

~we salute you in your grave.

funeral

2007-03-05T21:04:00.000+08:00

today was...
spastic,weird,funny,stupid and COOL!

lols.
lets see...
first,
Chowyen,Gracia,Sheryl,Sheipei,Xiying and I
decided to skip art by pretending to be sick.
actually only i was acting sick
cause Gracia and Chowyen are down with gastric pain and cramps respectively.
Sad thing is,
i lied that i had cramps
and i really did have a stomachache.
not cramp though.
Sheryl,Shipei and Xiying went back first cause Mrs. Neo was angry.
but not before we drank three packets of Milo.
it was hilarious cause we heard the staff members asking why three packets were gone.
:P
You guys can go see the pictures from Sheryl's blog.

then,
we talked abit about some stuff that was not for the normal ears to hear.
lol?!

it was kinda saddening to see a good friend go to waste.
she was such a nice girl at first
but now i see her true colours.
of course,
i'm hurt by her actions
and angry too.
why?
if you knew how she treated me,
you would to be fuming mad.

i gave in too much,
now its time to give her a bit of her own medicine.
for what you did to me,
is what i'll do to you.

i'm so frustrated.
i don't know how to get rid of all this frustration.
pardon if i get grouchy or moody.
cause i might be...

today's recommendation is My Chemical Romance's Heaven Help Us.
Cry of help i guess.

~the angels come screaming.

lol no more.

2007-03-03T18:14:00.000+08:00

today was okay.
i had fun dissing a particular person.
even though now i realised he/she wasn't even worth my saliva.

the audition,
let's digress.
it was kinda unexpected
cause i thought it would have been worse.
for me,
i thought i did okay
but my voice trembled a bit.
through it all,
i think i should be able to make it through.

today's song recommendation is good charlotte's new single,
Keep your hands off my girl.
its mostly just words.

~i am not afraid to walk this world alone.

lol?!

2007-03-01T21:28:00.000+08:00

rain, wind and colds.
can this week get any worst.
i meant that as a statement not a question.

replies to tags:
{nana} heyhey, i get bored in class easily... think of the teachers in diapers!

{venus} you got change meh? i checked others and the link is still the same leh...

{gracia} i think when you die, that phrase will be fondly remembered.

{xk} dude... yo... hahwah... lol?!

{shipei} SUBWAY, EAT FRESH! love those cookies!

some people will never ever know whats wrong with them,
they will always stick up only for themself,
never for others.
first priority will always be them,
never others.
i'm so sick.

today's song recommendation is Dashboard Confessional's Vindicated.

~i am flawed but i am cleaning up so well.

imnotokay

2007-02-23T08:41:00.000+08:00

argh.
i failed my geog test.
by one mark.
now, i'm banned from my mp3.
i'm as good as dead.
T_T.

stupid la.
plus if i fail my math test,
i will be ban from my computer.

i studied like hell for the test and i failed.
those who crammed the last minute passed.
what the hell.

right now,
i'm at the computer lab.
and i'm surfing the net openly
cause i finished my homework!
shipei is racking her brains next to me.
ha!
i remembered asking her how to do the homework and she said
we did not need to do the homework but i finished it anyway,
so i'm enjoying my rewards and she's suffering right now!
ha!

i sound so mean.
i feel bad cause i purposely daoed someone.
actually i daoed alot of people but most were accidents.
i didn't see them.
REALLY!

i'm hooked to wuzun, farenheit, hana kimi and luo zhi xiang.
i'd never thought that i'll be hooked to this sorta stuff.
cause i'm used to being english-orientated in tv serials and music.
but its a good hook! ((:

i just realised that lotsa girls have fallen for one particular guy in my class.
that's weird.
cause i don't see what's so attractive about him.
i mean he's nice and all
but i think they only go for his looks and charm i guess.
kinda reminds me of one other guy i know...
weird.

today's recommendation is +44's when your heart stops beating.
its upbeat and gets me in a good mood always.

~i'll be your number one with the bullet.